Writer: Lost In ๐ฑ๐ถ๐๐พ๐๐๐พ๐๐ ๐ค | @lostinvasileios / lostinvasileios.tumblr.com
Subject: Fear Of Fallingย
Link: Tumblr / 09.04.2024
About: ๐ ๐ฅ๐ฆ๐ท๐ฐ๐ต๐ช๐ฐ๐ฏ๐ข๐ญ ๐ฃ๐ญ๐ฐ๐จ ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ข๐ญ๐ญ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ฅ๐ฆ๐ช๐ต๐ช๐ฆ๐ด ๐ต๐ฉ๐ข๐ต ๐ฑ๐ฆ๐ข๐ฌ ๐ฎ๐บ ๐ช๐ฏ๐ต๐ฆ๐ณ๐ฆ๐ด๐ต, ๐ข๐ฏ๐ฅ ๐ฑ๐ฆ๐ข๐ฌ ๐ฎ๐บ ๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ข๐ณ๐ต.
Fear Of Fallingย
Yeah, that’s nice. But why do you fear so much? No, I’m โ serious, why? A lot of the time, as sad as it is, I’ve encountered people who often lower their power by fearing all the possible outcomes. Keyword, love: possible.
Take it from me for the first year or so of practicing and getting close to deities, no matter how real things were, I always had a lingering thought of “What if I’m just making it up?” or “They’d never say that to me.”
While being able to differentiate your thoughts and your projection while interacting with deities or magic(k) at all is important, you don’t need to fear it. If you mess up, you mess up. Nobody’s angry or disappointed at you because the universe, your deities, they understand. You’re only human. And you’re trying. That’s what matters. Trying.
Your failures are not measured, they aren’t keeping score of all the times you accidentally fucked up something small like interpreting their exact wording or actions like if they waved their hands at a specific point in their sentence or not. You know?
Here’s something that helped me: if it makes you happy, then fuck all else. Everything can technically be perception, anyway. If something’s fake, you’ll find out eventually. You’ll be able to tell at certain points. Lady Hekate once said, “Things are only as real as you want them to be.”
Of course, grounding and else others are also important factors, but if the only thing that’s realistically stopping you here is the fear of them being figments of imagination, fear of “failing” to reach out to them, etc … You don’t need to worry about that, dove.
Most of the time, it’s just brain fog. It’s just the fear of the unknown, rejection, and other things of those categories. And that’s all valid. Most of the time, at least for me, it was the fact that I was in the presence of such magnificent beauty that made it difficult to believe I was experiencing what I was. It was the amount of incomprehensible, out-of-this-world love that the entities I connected with had for me. It was โ them, in general at times.
I suffered from psychosis for years when I was younger before starting my journey, and despite how I’ve gotten drastically better over the years, I still contain some certain … Tendencies you could say.
I constantly questioned if things were real, and, yes asking questions is alright. It’s great to do. But don’t drive yourself into a sorrow pit over them. You know? Don’t bring yourself down more by believing those overthinking fears you can have at times.
I was under such immense fear of making things up. I failed to realize, that the only reason, I was having such a hard time, was because, I doubted myself way too much. I was way too hard on myself, in multiple cases, and still can be at times, unfortunately.
Have more faith in yourself. Have more patience with yourself. No matter how experienced someone is, there’s always something new to learn. And learning is difficult, for everyone at times. Everyone’s gone through the same thing, in their variation before, and most likely will a thousand times again. The more you learn to trust yourself, the more you can overcome that battle โ which might be one of the hardest, to tell you the truth โ the smoother this will get for you. But it takes time, it takes breaks, it takes tears and effort, it takes a lot. It takes you.
One of the points of magic and deities or whatever the hell else is to learn to enjoy life more simply. To live. To experience. You can’t do that if you’re too caught up in your fears to see how far you’ve gotten, to see at all.
You know the truth, deep down. Just shh, and listen. It may take a long time, but eventually, you’ll find your answer to the reality of things. To the emotions of things. Don’t pressure yourself, don’t suffocate yourself with doubts and fears. Everything that’s yours is yours, everyone creates their realities and fates. Just be you. Just grow. Just feel. Just … Live your journey. Everything’s going to be fine.ย
RESPONSE BY XP (VIA LS666 BLOG)ย
Iโm no witch or warlock. I donโt do magick. I donโt have special powers. The only power, if you can call it a power, is my imagination. Reading this, I have become aware of the need of exponents of magick to believe in themselves and what they are experiencing, with deities during conjuring. Though I have never actually experienced this myself, I would imagine (thereโs that word again), that it would be incredible to experience.
Returning to the power of imagination โ for me, this is real โ stories, ideas, characters, plots, twists, and everything in between, can be somewhat of a โstream of consciousnessโ that comes and goes โฆ coming at me fast or slowly revealing itself โฆ sometimes it makes perfect sense, other times it can be an ensemble of chaos โฆ not always easy to grasp.
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Writing, then becomes a form of materialization of these thoughts โฆ and in my case, these are thoughts that arouse me and sexually excite me, often to the point of masturbation โฆ and even orgasm. The ones I manage to capture are integrated into my story drafts. Some of which, I have many that have never been published, remain waiting for the right inspiration for me to continue.ย