Writer: Simon
Subject: Answer Me This
Link: LS666 Comments / 28.03.2026
Answer Me This
If you please, answer me this: can one live between good and evil? For me, Satan is Thé God of Evil. And His appeal to me is great. Satanist or not, I have very evil fantasies. Fantasies that easily could develop into urges, but that’s me. I know of ppl who consider themselves Christians who are just like me.
The point is, I also have a lot of good in me. A woman I care for, and for the life of me, I don’t even dream of wanting to use or even corrupt her. I do volunteer work for a benefit foundation. I like to help people! But… then… this dark side in me. This side that wholeheartedly says, Hail Satan! That says hmm, let’s do some very, very evil stuff. Can one be an undivided Satanist with so much good in them? Or… please, your council.
REPONSE BY XP (VIA LS666 COMMENTS & BLOG)
Interesting — this is something I have contemplated many times. My evil fantasies can be so overwhelming. I truly enjoy them. But I think we all have our moments. The pendulum swings between the poles. We change from seeking to do good to conceiving the most diabolically evil things. I used to think of it like Dr Jackle & Mr Hind kind of thing. Now, I am okay with it.
Just to let you know that you’re not alone in this situation. Vanilla is fine. I have vanilla skeletons in my closet. Depraved is fine. I go nightly into the depths of hell and back. It’s all in the protective confines of our minds. An evil fantasy that we have enjoyed, yet nobody gets hurt. And nobody knows, except ourselves or those you wish to share with.
Be evil. Be good. Be both. XP
thoughts, fantasies, desires and urges… contained in the big head while your hand is pumping on the little head… the anticipation builds and the thoughts become more extreme until it all cum’s out in a cardiovascular explosion of pleasure that calms the brain and relaxes the body. Do i praise Satan for my release or God for not giving me a heart attack? My wife understands that if i’m found slumped over at my desk, just zip me up before calling 911. Otherwise, the feelings just start growing again… edging for days until something pushes me over the edge and on a path to feeling helpless to stop… after a moment of composure, i enjoy a drink out on the deck and immerse myself in the best “mother nature” has to offer. Maybe i should be thanking her and not some good or evil man. maybe I should thank all three… “mother nature” for my current surroundings, “god” for giving me a good heart and two hands so i can continue to masturbate when one gets fatigued and “the devil” for implanting evil thoughts into people i can talk to online who get me over the edge… yep… that must be the balance i seek and the life i must now embrace…
Thank you, Pervone, for this interesting insight. Giving thanks for our “blessings” is something that must confess that has crossed my mind on more than a few occasions. And looking at the outcome of getting past an “event”, to further situations, do make me wonder to the source of these “interventions”.
Aside from the “heart attack”, as we get older, our health issues and sexuality are so entwined. At my age, with the ability to edge and orgasm, who do I give thanks too?
Some years back I survived a near-drowning incident unscathed. Did I suddenly start going to church? No, I started writing perverted stories. When ASSTR collapsed, did I see it as a sign from God to stop? No, I started my own depraved website.
I do believe that were all part of “Mother Nature” and that when I die, there’s no heaven or hell, we’ll return to the soil, become one with the rest of everything else that was, or is to be — it’s not the most eloquent of answers, but if I had to give thanks, “God” doesn’t really make the list!
Xtians and many non-xtians may utter the words “thank god” whenever some good happens, or (more likely) whenever some bad or unwanted doesn’t happen (but until that moment seemed as if it would happen). Are these people REALLY thanking “god”. Like XP, I have to wonder who or what may be the true source of what happens in our lives and the world around us. XP said, “Giving thanks for our “blessings” is something that must confess that has crossed my mind on more than a few occasions. And looking at the outcome of getting past an “event”, to further situations, do make me wonder to the source of these “interventions”.
In my former xtian life I just assumed that when something good happened then it was “god” at work and whenever something I wanted to happen didn’t happen then “it must not god’s will.”
However, the outcomes were often confusing and it was very hard to see a clear cut line between what I was SUPPOSED to see as “good” and what was SUPPOSED to be seen as “bad”. This is because I often actually WANTED the “bad” outcome and/or the “good” outcome just felt anticlimactic and was actually a let down or disappointment when I really looked inward at what I had really been wishing for. At the time, this just left me more and more confused and frustrated. And could lead to shame and guilt feelings since I was questioning my own desires… Why did I WANT what was supposedly “bad”? Why did the “good” leave me empty and unfulfilled? What was “wrong” with me?
Now, looking back, I can see there was NOTHING WRONG WITH ME. I was really just in denial of what and who I really am. I was praying to and thanking the wrong “god”. I simply had not yet accepted my true human nature. And that nature is one that is animalistic. It has elements of good AND EVIL and BOTH are a natural part of who I really am. To deny either one is to not really be all that you are made to be.
The buble says we must deny ourselves and only focus on jebus and his sky daddy. Bullshit!!! That would be like saying I’m just going to cut off this part of me so that I can focus only on you. Fuck that!!!
Only after I truly accepted and embraced my satanic nature and true self, then I realized it is OK to embrace ALL aspects of myself… the good AND THE EVIL. Each have a time and a place. There are those in life that I love. There are those that I hate. There are many I really don’t waste time considering one way or another. And I know they are doing likewise in relation to me. I’m OK with that. The side of me that you will see is exactly the one you deserve to see.
The old Indian legend about having 2 wolves inside and you become the one you feed is true… but why pick just one to feed and deny the other? FEED BOTH !!!
But back to the “who should we pray to or give thanks to?” question…
I can very honestly say that it feels more fulfilling when I THANK SATAN FOR ALL THINGS. Just like I now pray to Satan for all things. When I used to pray to jebus it just felt hollow and like the words never made it beyond the empty room. But anytime I have prayed to Satan it has felt different. I don’t mean that he is a genie who just grants wishes (he’s not that all). But rather, he is a listener who actually cares. He cares about BOTH the good and the evil desires of my heart.
And he is a mentor. One who can guide me if I will only seek his counsel. He can open doors and help to remove obstacles sometimes. He can lead me to opportunities. BUT… the choices are left up to me. He isn’t pushing me. He is simply giving me CHOICES. It is my own inner wolves – both the good and the evil one that help me to take the step, make the choices, live my life. Satan is still the Lord of this world. Regardless of my own choices. But when I recognize him and acknowledge him then I feel like he does appreciate that. He didn’t demand that I follow him (unlike the other guy) and he will be just fine whether or not I follow him. But, he is happy whenever I do acknowledge him. When I do thank him for clarity that he may have provided, or opportunities that he helped to orchestrate. In those moments I am acknowledging him and I thank him. Thank him for the good and the evil. I crave both. He allows me both without shame or guilt.
And so I thank him always and in all things. Thank him that I didn’t have to waste too much getting some pre-Op testing this morning and that traffic was lighter than usual. Thank him for the clean bill of health when I got the test results this afternoon. Thank him for the connection I made with a local slut who will visit this weekend so she can try out stripping at a local club (good luck thanking the other guy for such a “sinful” thing LOL). Thank him for her being sexually promiscuous so that we can spend a weekend indulging in what others would call SIN.
I’m not going to split my thanks and say that “god” gets credit for the medical and Satan gets credit for the sexual. I don’t think it works that way. I think jebus and “god” are fairytales at best, and egomanic assholes is probably a much better description of them. Neither deserves any kind of thanks. But SATAN IS REAL (I’ve felt it too many times to think otherwise) and so the ONLY ONE I am going to thank is Satan. Not because he is a magic genie wish granter, but because he is my friend, my counselor, my comforter, and the ONE TRUE GOD. Simple as that.
Thank You Satan!!!