Writer: Balwar2007
Subject: I Can’t Live a “Holy” Life
Link: LS666 Email / 13.05.2026
I Can’t Live a “Holy” Life
Thank you for your site. It has helped me greatly to finally realize that I can’t live a “holy” Christian life. I’ve been looking at porn all my life, and I love it. Your site has shown me that it is natural, and what Satan wants.
I no longer feel guilty about my porn addiction. I’m proud that I’m serving the dark lord. I’ve always believed that sex and sexuality are not a sin. Your articles, as well as your contributors, showed me that I’m not the only one. Satan loves sex, and I love sex — I must truly be a follower of Satan.
I’ve been on your site for many years and have left and returned ( a common theme among xtian men trying their best to be pure and chaste). After this last relapse (praise Satan), I’ve seen the light and know that I’m forever a disciple of Satan because of my overwhelming love for porn, especially now Satanic porn.
One other thing I want to highlight is how much you and your contributors have helped me to accept, what I believe is normal behavior in all fathers, which is lust for their daughters.
Consensual incest is unfortunately not something society believes in or agrees with, even though “biologically”, males and females are not monogamous. We as a species should have sex with as many partners as possible. Father/daughter and mother/son, while not “optimal” for genetic diversity, still can be useful, and god it is only natural as we love each other.
I used to have heavy guilt for being sexually aware of my younger daughters (decades ago now), but I am sad by the number of people who may have missed a wonderful inter-family relationship. I do not advocate sex with minor children as they are not able to comprehend and enjoy. I know the lord satan doesn’t make such a distinction, but I have free will to exercise my judgment, yet I don’t impose that judgment on others.
Again. I wanted to thank you for helping me set my spirit free of all my guilt; it was my Christian faith that couldn’t. Thank you again. Hail Satan. Praise Lilith.
Love the pic
I really appreciate the raw honesty of this posting. When it comes to porn, I am almost untrollably compelled to pay for premium sites as an offering of sorts. Even though the industry does not need my money, it’s more of a principle of etiquette spiritually. Adult websites, live sex shows, and strip clubs are basically todays modern version of temple prostitutes. People would give collateral, participate in prayer / ritual, then have sex with the servants – as it was a way to connect with the energies associated with said order of divinities.
It probably goes without saying, that you are SO not alone. Thank you for “coming clean” so to speak. Gosh, I spent nearly my entire adult life dedicated to one religious branch or another of “Christianity”. What really boggles my mind… is that I am highly educated & was successful in many facets of business as well as social programs, Non- Profits etc etc. The “perfect lil family”, everyone thought. Then, one day – the lightbulb turned on – and I found Real freedom in a life filled with depravity – pushing the limits of sexual gratification – all of it. My eyes were opened & my mind was set free by what had been for all of my life – SIN. Even as an old guy now, it is still hard fort me to believe it took so long to learn that I had it ALL backwards. SIN – was freedom. I pride myself now on being an exceptional person – treating everyone like they are family – and seeing how many I can get to uncover their deepest, darkest, most depraved lusts.
Those are really relevated comments for me. I know my awakening started suddenly and was fierce and overwhelming as I looked at my “life” realized who I really am. Sin is freedom. I don’t even think of it as sin anymore, but rather a way of enjoying life. Thanks for the comments
One thing that has highly bothered me is the nonsensical religions restrictions imposed on sexuality. The Abrahamic religions claim we are the most beautiful creation of God (The Demiurge) made in the image of said divinities ~via the Council of El. Infact we are encouraged in Genesis to multiply. Yet somehow an intense appreciation of our divine alikeness amoungst one another is somehow the greatest ‘Sin’. Contrary to what pop-culture media would have people think, I’ve found most Left Hand adepts to be more down to earth, congenial, and accepting of various peoples. I genuinely have a love-lust for various cultures, religions, and theologies (for acedemic purposes) because it helps broaden my perspective of the worlds problems. The result is peace of mind, empathy, and a willingness to forgive. We all house various spiritual attachments within, and we should seek alignment of those forces, rather than expelling those archetypes that may seemingly turn dark (that which is only perceived negatively at first because of unexamining the root cause of imbalance). Sex is a great way to reset and reground, and I think this truth is particularly hit hard on the morality scale because of the power it gives back to peoples lives.
Thank you for sharing some of your journey with me John! : )
The whole sex is good in some case and bad in others has been an issue for me for years. I have never had problems gay and lesbians have sex together. It is natural to me. But organized religions make at a “mortal” sin. WTF. An orgasm is an orgasm whether brought about by masturbation, a machine. a man or a woman. So how is one good and the other bad. We live as sexually frustrated people trying to be good loving people, but made to feel bad because we love someone we shouldn’t. Thanks for your thoughts.
Interesting take on paid sites. It has merit, if by offering monetary donation to foward Satan’s work on earth since porn is Satan’s loving weapon to convert hearts and souls. Just like donating at xtian churches. I may take up this idea.
Meant to follow up on this sooner, past few weeks have been hectic. I think you might find this recent posting interesting per XP forwarding my reply, which relates to this concept:
https://littlesally666.com/sex-magick-by-magi_mania/
A price has to be paid, and the wager IS death IF the balance is not proportionate to your intentions. As I’ve mentioned elswhere, porn actors and actresses are usually active Sex Magic practitioners. Free sites harvest energy, and the exchange per fluids for pleasure is not mutual – even for allied Left Hand adepts (because they may unknowingly not be following the rules). For me personally, I experience a spiritual drain if I’m not contributing something else to gain towards a specific result and or benefit. Now I’m not saying you should go donate 1/10 of your income to porn sites. Research different types of offerings and remember it’s not so much about the value of chosen physical object, but rather the spiritual energy associated around said object. For example: Gold is highly valued by both Light and Dark entities. Yet does that mean I’m offering up bars of gold? No. I have had ‘Gold Dust’ on hand as a practical means to appy in certain rituals. Ever wonder why goverments, world banks, and private investers own roughly over 80% of the planets Gold? There is a reason, and its not to regulate fiat-based currencies!
Anyways, hope this insight helps.