Writer: Feluci666
Subject: Discovering Shemales & Satan
About the writer: About myself, Everything started when I was little boi, I felt the urge to play with my hole. I didn’t knew what I was doing, I was taking a bath, when I formed from a soap a little cock. And I put it in my hole. I liked it. After a while I do it again. And again. I watched my first movie with T-girls and crossdressers by accident when I was twelve. I was mesmerized by them, their beauty. And that they had a cock between their legs.
Link: Fetlife / 30.01.2023
Discovering Shemales & Satan
I watched my first porn movie, soft porn, when I was nine. I remember myself sleeping in my parents bedroom. I was having bad dreams frequently. i went to sleep with them to calm down. One night, after a strange dream, I went to their bedroom. Strange sounds wake me, moaning. They were watching porn movie. And they were touching each other. They thought I was sleeping. I had my eyes open, but I didn’t move. Unknown feelings and emotions. My little cock erected. It was a straight porn movie. Watching pussy and cock for the first time. While i was listening to my parents. How my father was fucking my mommy..
This opened the Pandora’s box. Slowly but steadily day by day i was thinking about it. But I didn’t knew what to do with,, those thoughts. Till One day I was having a bath, I put the soap in the shampoo bottle, I made a little dildo from the soap. And I shoved it in my virgin boi hole. In and out, in and out. I was doing till the soap resolve in my hand. Ecstatic feeling. My cock was hard, while I was fucking my self another unknown thing happened. My body was shaking, my first ejaculation was coming.
The feeling of guilty took the place of joy and ecstasy. Every time I was thinking about it my little young cock was getting harder. I was trying to hide my erecting cock. After a few months, I started to play with my hole. In the beginning with my fingers. Drove by my instinct. I was enjoying it, so much. My ejaculations were getting stronger. Only a few drops of cum, in the beginning. I was curious about the taste of my cum. I started to lick my fingers — I liked the taste of my cum — salty and hot.
At the age of twelve, we visited my mother’s Sister weekend trip my cousin was eighteen. He was listening Death Metal. Black outfit. He was drawing his eyebrows black. I was mesmerized by the sounds of Black Metal. I loved the artwork on the vinyls and CDs. The symbol of the Pentagram hypnotized me.
Saturday night my cousin was out. I was alone in his bedroom. Where I found his porn stash. I was so excited. My parents having fun with their friends at a garden party — I locked the door — I put the first VHS tape and I started to watch. Straight, straight, straight. I was hard, but I found them boring. I watched all of them on fast forward. I watched six or seven of them? I haven’t seen the last three. I thought they will be the same.
I was wrong. A tape, with no writing, white. Started with showing a church,a priest and some nuns — This movie had a story — Not like the other I’ve seen. Girls with girls having lesbian sex. Nuns. In the church. I was starting to like it. After that, the plot of the film changing. A pentagram was drowned in the floor of the church. Males wearing black robes. Black candles. The view of the room aroused me so much. The males started to kiss each other, touching and playing.
After the foreplay, they changed positions and started to fuck each other while they were in the center of the pentagram. I was shocked by the view. I didn’t want to watch them but at the same time i was aroused by them. I catch myself looking at their big cocks. My hand went down under my pants. I started to stroke my cock. Faster and faster. I came after a few minutes — there was so much cum, all over myself — I didn’t stop watching the movie while I was eating my own cum.
My orgasm was intense; but my cock was still hard.
The Pandora’s box brought me to the world of homosexuality — exposed — the scenario had two scenes with the nuns, lesbian sex and straight. My cock was not anymore hard. My erecting cock was now soft — the view of the pussy made that — the voice in my head was telling me that this is the right thing, the normal.
The fight of the good and bad, evil had started. I stopped the movie. I took it out of the player. I think you can understand how I felt. I was trying to convince myself to stop. I went to the balcony for fresh air. My head was spinning, my body was shaking.
The party was going on.
Nobody was near. Loud music echoed from the garden. I felt the urge to put some of the music of my cousin. The pentagram was still in my mind. I couldn’t understand what was the lyrics, the voice of the singer — as he was screaming — it gave me the thought of evil.
I was looking at the artwork, the head of goat, blood, and symbols. I got scared frightened by the sounds — the Demonic energy which was sending to me — I was sitting on the bed and a few minutes later, a heard a voice telling me, that everything is good — I don’t have to be afraid — I was calmed.
The images of the priests fucking each other was bombing my mind. The feeling of being guilty for that wasn’t there anymore. The voice was telling me to go and play the movie — I had two more tapes, that I hadn’t seen — I didn’t knew what to expect.
The next video gave me quite a surprise. I mean, seeing girls on girls and guys on guys was something new — but in the next video, they featured women that looked a little different — I was very curious — I mean, yes, they were women, but taller than usual — and the moment they opened their legs — I saw they had cocks. It was incredible. I was so fired up.
They were shemales. I watched them sucking cocks and sodomizing other males. It made me so fucking horny. Feminine, beautiful, without vaginas — I immediately fell in love with them — and came another three times just looking at them. Unrevealed to me the true beauty in she-cocks.
Next morning we were leaving, my cousin was sleeping heavy. I sneaked into his bedroom and I stole the tapes.
My obsession, my addiction had started. I wanted to see more of them. One day, it was a Sunday, after going to the church with my parents, we visited a flea market, not far away from our house. I was behind my parents, when I saw a stand with used VHS tapes and magazines all types of — I walked behind them and I saw naked girls and boys. Yes, finally!
Next week, Saturday. I went there alone. It was raining. I didn’t had the courage to go and ask for Shemale movies. But all changed, like magic. I wasn’t thinking about being ashamed. Or another negative thoughts. The seller didn’t say anything, he gave me two tapes and I left. Adrenaline rush, I was almost running. I wanted more. I was stealing from my mother. My parents talking about homosexuality, listening to the a Christian radio station, and all the while, their son was edging and stroking to shemales — I was laughing inside.
After spending two years watching shemales, every day. I reached my limits. And I felt the urge to feel in real life what I was watching. I was struggling with myself, but I was also determined that I would go. So on Saturday, when there was no school, I knew that in some newspapers I would be able to find advertisements. All type of ads, but only one was from a shemale prostitute — I called the number and got an immediate adrenaline rush again. She gave me directions to her house. I lied to my parents, that I was going to a friend of mine and set off.
The moment she opened the door and I stepped in — I found that I couldn’t breathe, I couldn’t even speak — she looked at me — and asked me how old I was. But it was obvious, that I was underage. When I told her my age, she didn’t say anything. She smiled. And lick her lips. She told me to follow her to the living room. It was so dark inside. No light coming from outside — the only light was from candles — It was do weird, but not only this, She wasn’t alone.
As we walked into the room, she told me that her girlfriend was there too. She told me to sit down to the couch, next to her feminine friend. They both passed as female. She asked me if I want something to drink. She went to the kitchen to bring me an orange juice. Her friend asked me if I want a cigarette.
The other one, walk to the room and gave me the glass with the juice. I was sitting in the middle. They were delighted to be with me. She ordered me to drink it all at once. Her voice changed, from happy and calm to more aggressive. I drink it quickly. She took the glass from my hand and told me to relax. There’s nothing to worry about. While both of them touching my body. Their hands were all over my body.
Suddenly, I started to feel dizzy. My head was spinning and I couldn’t focus. Everything went blur. They gave me to each other while kissing me. One of them grabbed me and helped me to stand up. While she was undressing me. They liked my smooth and hairless body. One stood behind me, taking my clothes off. They were dancing and pressing her body to mine. They were playing with me — I was their little boi.
By this time, I was totally naked. My cock was hard. The one who was sitting, order me to make a turn and show her my ass. I was so high on whatever drink they had given me — I was just following their orders — I had to bend over and spread my cheeks. One of them was slapping my ass, while the other was kissing me.
While she was taking her clothes off, my eyes looked down at her cock. She came closer to me. And put her cock in my hands. She told me to start playing with it. The other one was licking my virgin tight hole. They were doing lines of coke. Taking turns. Order me to sit on her legs. My instinct, my true nature was guiding me. Like a cowgirl I sat on her.
My ass was moving, pushing my cock to hers. Her cock was hot and hard. They were laughing at me, humiliating me — with her sweet voice, telling me to start licking the head, like a lollipop. The one behind me, grabbed my head aggressively. She pushed my mouth over her cock — I thought that I must learn to suck girly cocks like a pro.
At first, I couldn’t take it all in my mouth. The other made me take her cock too. After sucking them both. We moved to the bedroom. In their bedroom, everything was black, including the curtains and bed — where they put me in dodgy position on their dark bedding.
One of them drew a crude pentagram upon my chest with her red rouge. The other, put a heavy black steel pentagram necklace around my neck. They handcuffed me to the bedposts, while the music (Marilyn Manson, in the beginning) was playing loud — well, loud enough to cover my screaming — they were ready to breed me.
I can’t describe how painful was. I was crying. They gave me poppers. I was their thirteen year old fuck-toy. I was high as a kite. My tears made them harder. Their voices changed, like animals. I was crying and begging them to stop, but my cock was still so hard. Evil and wicked. They were filled with perverted lust.
Everything changed after their first load. I took their hot creamy cum, deep Inside me. It was the moment they took my soul and connect me with our Lord Satan. There was so much cum, dripping from my ass-pussy. They sodomized me — and opened the door of dark satanic lust — dark devil energies flowing through my thirteen year old body. I was moaning like a little girl.
I wanted more and more — cock addiction — shemale cock addiction. After this, I was their little fuck-boi for three years. I’ve done pervert filthy things. Whatever they wanted me to do — rituals , gang-bangs, with older males.