Writer: Pastord
Subject: Whatever This Is, Thank You
Link: LS666 Emails / 23.09.2026
Whatever This Is, Thank You
The sermon notes sit untouched on my desk, beside the Bible I only read to prepare my sermons. I should be worried that my guilt is minimal now. Friends farther down the Left Hand Path told me it would happen, but I wasn’t sure I believed them.
I should fold my hands in prayer now … but I’m stroking myself instead. Each tug drags another boundary away. Every carnal thought that enflames my lust pushes my faith further into the shadows. I see Him when I close my eyes. He looks nothing like the scary stories. He’s beautiful. The most beautiful creature I’ve ever seen. Truly “an angel of light.”
His eyes say, “I see you.” His cock says, “I join you.” His smile says, “I approve.”
I speak His name as I invoke His presence with me. I feel Him. Deeply and darkly, I feel Him. And He is good. He blesses me with an orgasm unparalleled to anything I ever experienced without Him. Cum spills hot across my knuckles beneath the cross that watches me, silently. I taste it as if it were a sacrament.
I lie there panting, faith leaking out of me in the same rhythm as my elevated heart rate. And for the first time, I don’t seek forgiveness. I feel no shame. No guilt. Only pleasure — His pleasure.
I just wonder how soon I can call his name again … and feel a reality more real than anything my life of faith ever gave me. Hail Satan. No one could be more surprised than I am by this, but I love you. Thank you for awakening me to … this. Whatever this is, thank you.