Writer: Pastord
Subject: I was blind, but now I see
Link: Tumblr / 28.05.2026
I was blind, but now I see.
I grew up singing Amazing Grace, and one of the lines says, “I was blind, but now I see.” That has come to hold a new significance for me.
I’m a Christian pastor, and I’m supposed to tell you how bad Satan is. But I’ve tasted of his goodness, and He is beautiful!
I’m supposed to tell you of the horrors of the darkness, but I’ve never felt more at home than in the darkness of His presence.
I’m supposed to tell you of the evils of lust and pleasure, but why? I’ve resisted and denied myself — for decades — and for what?
All I know is that Satan has unlocked doors and desires in me that I didn’t even know about. I understand the appeal of forbidden fruit now — I understand why Adam and Eve ate it. It’s delicious. God fucking damn delicious.
So, live deliciously. And do whatever makes your cock hard.
I’m not a pastor, but I grew up going to church and even spent over 20 years playing in the church band as an adult. For what? So that they could fill my head with a bunch of lies and make me feel shame and guilt about what was going on in my head and heart and what my real desires were?!?! And when I’d ask questions, their answers were always the same – you need to pray harder. Bullshit. My prayers were going nowhere. Until…
Once I found Satan and realized that I’d been playing for the wrong side for way too many years, then things started to make a LOT more sense. Life went from one disappointment after another to a series of new adventures. I no longer felt shame and guilt. I felt FREE and ALIVE for the first time. Satan is the truth. Satan is the way. Satan wants us to live deliciously. I have never been happier than I am now. I will NEVER go back to the bullshit lies of xtianity. The only Lord I will serve is Satan and that bastard on the stick can remain dead as I have zero use or interest in him anymore.
You’re always an inspiration to me, brother.
Dear Pastord
I am a pastor in a small church in Connecticut
I have been seeking another pastor to have a blasphemy relationship as a way to honor Satan and enjoy his sin. If you have interest please email me to discuss
Pastor Gary
Please write me a praise to Satan.
Thank you, my brother. We’ve tried to hook up before, a few years back. Schedules just never aligned.
Please write to me.
You’re so right pastor, live life to the fullest and not worry about sin.
It’s hard not to think about the sin sometimes. But if we ever make it past that hurdle…
Thanks for another great essay Pastor Dave. Turning to Satan has made me free. I did not discover new desires, but came to accept the lust that was within me instead of struggling against it. I consider myself a good person, compassionate and understanding. But within my dark side, anything that harms no one is celebrated. I believe Satan will provide me the opportunity to realize some of my fantasies in time. (Perhaps in New Zealand next February).
Hail Satan and keep writing Dave
Thank you, Jim. You’re ever the encourager. I hope I’ve encouraged you in return.
Eat the sweet fruit between my legs, Pastor.
Some day He will make that happen…
It’s ripe and waiting…
The delights of satanic sin is much more intense for those from a strong Christian background.
The contrast between the suppression of lust and it’s full liberation is an exquisite pleasure that is impossible to deny.
Brother, I think you’re right.
Christians are set up to fall, over and over again, because their beliefs run in opposition to human nature
Agree that the liberation is exquisite; to not feel shame for wanting to have sex with men, women, transgender people is a wonderful feeling. Knowing I’m who I’m supposed to be.