Writer: BoudreauxT / David Plume
Subject: Exploring Darkness
Link: LS666 Email / 29.01.2024
Exploring Darkness
Since I started exploring and experiencing the darkness, I’ve remembered memories from my childhood that I had forgotten … or repressed, I don’t know.
I was exposed to porn at an early age (six or seven years old) when I found my father’s stash. I was clueless about sex, but I felt something, really felt something, when I saw women’s legs spread and the most beautiful lips in the world blew me kisses.
I remember those experiences.
But I recently remembered several times (often even) when I would look at porn and massage my tingling prick — full-blown masturbation wouldn’t come until maybe nine years old, dry orgasms at first but still gloriously addictive — that I had conversations with the devil.
Like an imaginary friend, he and I talked, about what “We” were looking at. I knew what my Sunday School teachers told me about Satan, but the devil I knew wasn’t scary.
I was a latchkey kid and home every afternoon for hours. So, Satan helped me explore my body in amazing ways, even pointing out my mother’s dirty panties and telling me to smell them. Amazing discovery, by the way.
One memory that found its way back into my consciousness is one afternoon when I had an irresistible urge to stick something, anything up my ass. I had fingered myself, but I wanted more inside me. I “Needed” more inside me.
And while I had never spoken to Satan in a tone of reverence, that day I called him, “Master,” and said out loud as I held a wooden plunger handle at my hole, “I want to do this. Do you want me to do this?” My “imaginary friend,” whispered, “Yes,” and I did.
Probably not the smartest thing I ever did, but I still remember how good it felt and how I wanted to do it more and more. I had shit everywhere, but it was wonderful. (I still enjoy something in my ass to this day.) I would go on to have sex early (I was twelve, and she was eleven) … and as a young teen, even suck cock. All while being a good church boy.
As I was finishing high school, though, I had a religious experience and promised God I would be a preacher if he would help me straighten out my life. (I had devolved into bestiality, for instance, and feared being caught and exposed.) I have some natural gifts and am an extroverted people person. So, that promise set in motion thirty years of preaching and pastoring, marriage, and kids. An enviable life to some.
But I was always a hypocrite — Porn was never far away (and the internet made it even easier). Except for some seasons of excruciating abstinence, I never stopped masturbating. I visited adult bookstores when I was out of town. And I started stealing dirty panties on pastoral visits, especially the little ones with rainbows and princesses on them. Somehow, though, I learned to live with the hypocrisy. I would confess my sins and curse my sinful nature. And the years went by.
Then I stumbled upon LS666 one Sunday afternoon, and the last three years have been an exhilarating fall. But the memories that have returned remind darkness is not new to me. Once upon a time, it was home.
Did Satan imprint on me when I was a child? Or did I imprint on him? Was I always destined to return to the darkness? I don’t know.
What I do know is that lust consumes me, and all I think about is pleasure and sex in its most depraved forms. And masturbation. Oh fuck, masturbation has become even more intense since discovering satanic porn. It has such a hold on me.
I’m still a Christian pastor, but the double life is exhausting. I don’t expect sympathy from anyone. It’s helped me, though, to tell you my story.
Hail BoudreauxT!
Thanks for your public confession brother; the god-damned story is also mine, particularly the fucking hypocrisy and guilt for being who I’ve always been.
My god-damned salvation came when I fucking met my Satanic wife Tatiana; the second I fucking saw her, I fucking knew she’d always been the One for me.
She fucking saved me from my fucking fear of damnation, and guides to my god-damned relationship with her Father Satan.
In fucking retrospect, I know I was never a god-damned christian, even though I was caught in the ideology most of my fucking life.
I’ve ask the cock-sucking christian god to prove himself to me most of my god-damned life, and received silence in fucking response; in fucking contrast, my Dark Master responds to my fucking prayers instantly ; there is never silence.
Tatiana and I are unapologetically devoted Theistic Satanists; fucking free of all god-damned guilt and fucking free to totally fucking enjoy life; we fucking live for utter depravity and glorious god-damned blasphemy. Our mission is to fucking defeat the fucking cock-sucking christian god and his mother-fucking church.
We fucking believe the bible’s historic truth, but fucking reject its god-damned repressive moral constraints. Only with God Satan is there real god-damned liberty and total freedom.
By the way, porn is our god-damned bible; we unapologetically embrace its god-damned power and practice its Unholy guidance every fucking day of our god-damned lives; without any guilt.
Praise God Satan for His undeniable Satanic Salvation; and our sure destination in Eternal Hell!
I fucking love how you fucking use fhe word fucking so fucking much. Makes me fucking horny. 😂
Man, I’d love to sit with you both for an hour and feast from you.
Same haha
Marcus,
I have only been here working the Dark Father for a few months. I am a Christian and deacon in my church. I haven’t attended for a couple years now, but I am going back to hopefully find and convert others to this path. Totally acting as a re dedicated Christian.
I had a rough few years plagued by depression, anxiety, and drank to self medicate. My vanilla wife and I were having troubles and my drinking finished off our marriage. Crushed me for a year or so. Not anymore! I found this site and others and of course evil porn and made the turn. At first, I was repulsed by you constant use of “God damn”! I even avoided your comments because of it. Then I began to feel muse get more and more depraved and I then began to seek your comments! I now God damn love reading your God damn comments and say it often! Even if I haven’t a reason to. I’ll just say it over and over again and my dicklette gets hard!! Thank you !! I wish I could service you and Tatiana(love that name) as your cum pig cleaner and bitch boi! I would love to eat your cum from her holes and kiss you with a snowball!! I’d then lick and suck you hard and give you my faggot boi cunt while eating Tatiana’s ass!! You’re an inspiration to me now!! ❤️❤️👿👹
Hail BoudreauxT!
Jesus fucking Christ Bro, we’re both fucking honored that we’ve become a god-damned inspiration to you; Praise God Satan!
Truthfully, my god-damned Satanic Whore-wife saved me from the irrational god-damned fear I had of god-damned damnation; thank God Satan, she’d never been fucking tainted by the cock-sucking christian god and his mother-fucking church.
I’ve fucking concluded that I was fucking created by God Satan for my Satanic Wife and His glorious god-damned service of total depravity and fucking blaspheme. It’s our god-damned mission to desecrate and blaspheme the cock-sucking christian god, his fucking bastard son and the mother-fucking holy spirit and fucking destroy his god-damned church and fucking build the Kingdom of God Satan on Earth.
We’re actually looking to buy a fucking christian church building and renovate it into a god-damned Temple to God Satan; we’ll of fucking course retain the fucking christian altar for our god-damned Satanic copulation and fucking cum worship!
Bro, there’s no other god-damned god but God Satan!
Keep on the god-damned left-hand path and fucking corrupt those fucking ignorant christian bitches and bastards!
Hail God Satan
Hail BoudreauxT!
Pastor,
I am a deacon in a Baptist church. My father was a pastor and my mom taught school. No porn in my house (none I found anyway) but I have wanted cock my whole life! I sniffed my moms and my sisters panties. I watched my sister duck her own tits and fuck herself with the wooden plunger handle thru the keyhole of our bathroom. I too fucked my self with that same plunger and played with my shit rubbing it all over myself! I spent the last 3 days eating nothing but my own shit and drank 155 ounces of my own piss. I ate my feces from the commode by going in head first and retrieved it with my mouth! I’m now a sick fuck and I love it. Got a load waiting in the toilet now. Breakfast. I lusted for sex with my parents and sister. I wore my sisters and mothers panties, bras, and dresses. I really loved wearing my moms garters and stockings and especially her hurdle!! Yummy!! I committed to Jesus in my early 20s and lived for the trinity for many years. Did a lot of good works. Led Bi le studies, taught adults, teens, and children. Never stopped masturbating and fantasizing.
I did put it down for a few years, but the thought never left completely. I’ve tried to go back several times since I started this decadent road but, I keep running back to Satan !! I’m about to, in a few days, have a full blown ceremony (by myself) where I am naked, dildo up my ass , and 666 across my forehead with many other decadent, evil writings on my whole body!! I’m giddy with anticipation!! Thank you for your inspiration and keep up the great work of our Lord, God, and Master Satan!! Hail Satan, Hail Lilith!!!👹👿💩❤️
Thank you. As fucked up as it sounds, I’m glad there are some who genuinely understand the struggle. I wish I could thank you in a more tangible way… 😉
Love this story and the thread comments! Makes my cock hard as rock hearing comments from filthy fuckers who are as deviant as me!
Amen. 😉