Writer: Pastord
Subject: Christians Giving Into The Darkness
Link: Tumblr / 02.06.2026
Christians Giving Into The Darkness
I’ve been wrestling with the darkness for nearly ten years. I still can’t believe that. I could tell you stories from my childhood that set up this season of my life in some ways, but for almost a decade, I have wavered between light and darkness, vows and betrayal, God and Satan.
I have had many incarnations here and on other platforms. And while I’m no expert, I am experienced. Can I offer a word of advice to my fellow Christians dabbling in the darkness? I get it. I know the feelings of pleasure that Satan gives. He is beautiful, and he is good. I shouldn’t say that as a pastor, but I have come to love him. Truly love him.
It’s easy, though, to get caught up in the excitement of rebellion and blasphemy and become so passionate that we go too far too fast. And before we know it, we’re disgusted with ourselves. And we disappear—again.
But here’s what I’m learning: think of your fall from grace like edging. Because post-nut clarity is a bitch, literally and figuratively. Do what you need to do, though. Going through the process of “becoming” from Christian roots to devil’s wings is a long journey.
So, give yourself a break. Hail Satan when you can. Just masturbate when you can’t. And along the way, you’ll grow into chanting “Hail Satan” and “I love you, Lord Satan” as you masturbate … and experience the best goddamn orgasms of your life. But until then, pace yourself.
RESPONSE BY GUARDIANWOLFF-666
There is truth in being in both Light and Darkness. Light comes from Darkness. It’s only in Darkness that you see Light. All answers and solutions come from Darkness. You can’t have one without the other.
Christians who only work in Light are only getting half the picture because Darkness and Light are two sides of the same coin. I’m not talking about evil. I’m talking about being still in darkness, meditation, taking the time and listening to your intuition and communing with Satan and his Demons for those who have eyes to see and ears to hear. Meditating on their guidance.
They will talk to you just like how you talk to your best friend. Love them and watch how they work in your life. There is no sin, no shame, and no guilt. You are set free, free to Lust, have Desire, and Pleasure. Question and rebel against authority, you will love yourself for it.
I see the darkness as the shadow side of myself I was taught to deny in my xtian upbringing. It is anchored in Satan. I struggled for ten years to overcome my “sex addiction “ and spent many months in residential rehabs. I asked for god’s help, and every time I failed, I felt deep guilt and shame. When I turned to Satan, that guilt and shame fell off like scales and I felt free to embrace my lust. I reached an agreement with my wife ( who no longer feels desire despite her strong libido before menopause) that allowed me to look at porn
without repercussions.
I now look for opportunities to fulfill my fantasies, Satan willing
Dr Jim
I’m grateful our paths crossed, Jim.
The whole feeling guilty about doing natural acts (masturbating, lusting, thinking about “sin”) is what is really fucked up about religions (don’t start on treatment of the LBGTQ community). My “fall” was caused by this and finally embracing who I really am (and have been all my life). Thank you Satan for freeing me.
I hear you, my friend…
I too am a Pastor of a small church and would greatly appreciate connecting with another Christian minister exploring all the beautiful sex filth of Satan
Please do email me
Gary
Would love to hear your council to help me cross over once and for all. I too no longer can resist or deny the dark lusts and desires. I am Glover
Glover it is completely up to you to determine how you feel about going down this dark path. In my case it took me a very long time to come to this point, and it was due to finally realizing that my constant “back and forth” meant that I really wanted to be here. I know I can “resist” porn and sexual “deviance”, but I also know that I like it, and have liked it even before I was able to understand what “deviance” was. Finally figuring that out let me know that this is who I really am, and to accept myself. Satan lets me be me, and that is what “pushed” me into my fall. I hope you’re able to figure out what you really want, and who your really are. Good luck.