Writer: Irrev69
Subject: Admit It. Relapsing Feels Good.
Link: Tumblr / 22.08.2026
Admit It. Relapsing Feels Good.
I know the feeling of disappointment in myself when, after a burst of faith and hope where I repented, deleted everything, and promised God never again, I get weak and return to the darkness.
But disappointment soon fades, and dark lusts flood in, delicious and powerful. Satanic images and ideas that I’ve seen countless times speak fresh words of welcome. So, my Christian brother or sister, work through your emotions. Repent when you can. But never forget—relapsing feels good, so goddamn fucking good
Yes I have had a few relapses too many to count. Yes they definitely feel good. Once put my hard on the vanity in my bathroom and just began pumping like I was pumping a woman. I was so high on the porn I was watching pumping and I began drooling I was in such heat as I pumped my cock and the drool was falling down on my hard cock making it very slippery as I thrust. The vanity was now covered in my drool and I’m thrusting ferociously and it’s slow slippery and feeling so so good until I cummed. Yes I cleaned up by eating my cum and all the drool
Father James
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Excellent observation and good point on the YO-YO effect that many Christians go through. Once exposed to the freedom of serving a different more caring and giving god the guilt that keeps them inline in their church dominated world begins to drive them into the bondage and restrictions of their bible’s control! I encourage you to keep speaking to them and help them to understand and build their resistance to the marionette control of the church!
Each time I have gone through this process I find that is like the tide coming in. The level of corruption, depravity & lust is deeper, higher, further. Also the time between relapsing is shorter. I realise even more that I don’t want to repent. I don’t want forgiveness. I desire the sin & the darkness & the untrammelled lust. Increasingly I love Satan & His ways & despise the loser jesus & his pathetic father & the fucked “Holy Spirit” which is just a desperate arse licking cunt.
The fact that everyone commenting here has had the same repent/relapse experiences is thrilling to me.
It means it’s true.
And that Satan is real, Praise His Name.
Thank you for posting this from one of my many Tumblr incarnations. I’ve been terminated three times in the last month alone. Frustrating. But I’m grateful we have other streams to drink from to quench our thirst.
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I’ve done it – repent/relapse – time and time again (all my life), and yes the pleasure is magnified each and every time. It is well worth the repentance to feel the pleasure of the relapse. I know that when I “repent” I will still fall back into Sin, and it is the new Sin that doubles the pleasure. Hail Satan.
I used to be on this yo-yo… but after once and for all deciding to Blaspheme the spirit of god, I have no more desire to repent. I do not feel guilt, shame, or remorse. Only a strong desire for more Sin. Yes, I can feel the seperation and connection, and sometimes that makes me sad so I will take a break so I can reconnect. But again, Im so glad to be off that ride. Satan has freed me from religion
It’s totally true. That pendulum between repentance and reoffending is so beautiful. Each time, it gets more and more delightful. XP
He will never let you go.
All relapses are temporary.
I know from experience.
He will always draw you back in.
There are no exceptions.
One other thought.
I used to be an atheist, but no more: the fact that every time I say to myself over the years that I’m over this Satanism stuff, almost IMMEDIATELY I start to weaken and relapse.
Something is pulling me back in. Harder than ever. That something is the Living Satan.
And as others have noted, each time i’m drawn back in, I am more evil, depraved, deranged, and blasphemous than ever.
#SatanIsReal
“That pendulum between repentance and reoffending is so beautiful. Each time, it gets more and more delightful.”
TRUTH !!!!!