Writer: Irrev69
Subject: Admit It. Relapsing Feels Good.
Link: Tumblr / 22.08.2026
Admit It. Relapsing Feels Good.
I know the feeling of disappointment in myself when, after a burst of faith and hope where I repented, deleted everything, and promised God never again, I get weak and return to the darkness.
But disappointment soon fades, and dark lusts flood in, delicious and powerful. Satanic images and ideas that I’ve seen countless times speak fresh words of welcome. So, my Christian brother or sister, work through your emotions. Repent when you can. But never forget—relapsing feels good, so goddamn fucking good
Yes I have had a few relapses too many to count. Yes they definitely feel good. Once put my hard on the vanity in my bathroom and just began pumping like I was pumping a woman. I was so high on the porn I was watching pumping and I began drooling I was in such heat as I pumped my cock and the drool was falling down on my hard cock making it very slippery as I thrust. The vanity was now covered in my drool and I’m thrusting ferociously and it’s slow slippery and feeling so so good until I cummed. Yes I cleaned up by eating my cum and all the drool
Father James
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Excellent observation and good point on the YO-YO effect that many Christians go through. Once exposed to the freedom of serving a different more caring and giving god the guilt that keeps them inline in their church dominated world begins to drive them into the bondage and restrictions of their bible’s control! I encourage you to keep speaking to them and help them to understand and build their resistance to the marionette control of the church!
Each time I have gone through this process I find that is like the tide coming in. The level of corruption, depravity & lust is deeper, higher, further. Also the time between relapsing is shorter. I realise even more that I don’t want to repent. I don’t want forgiveness. I desire the sin & the darkness & the untrammelled lust. Increasingly I love Satan & His ways & despise the loser jesus & his pathetic father & the fucked “Holy Spirit” which is just a desperate arse licking cunt.