Too Much Guilt by Balwar

Writer: Balwar

Subject: Too Much Guilt / Response to “Guilt Within Christianity” by Evelyn Sterling

Link: LS666 Comments / 29.07.2026

Too Much Guilt 

Agree with what you are saying about Christianity suppressing people’s inner self. I believe I’ve been bi since before I even knew it was a “thing”. As a preteen, I wanted to 69 (yes, I didn’t know it was called that then) as the idea of my sucking a “friend’s” cock while he did mine seemed so natural and fun (alas, never occurred). 

But no one taught me that; I thought of it on my own. No one had explained that doing so was gay/homo sex; I just thought it seemed like a cool thing to do. My own fears of sex being wrong stopped me from having sex with a boy when I really wanted to (I was surprised he wanted to fuck my butt) because I was afraid of being caught. 

Not that it would hurt (god, he was going in bareback and dry, so it would have hurt or been unsuccessful penetration) or that I didn’t want to; it was fucking being scared of being caught (I really hate now that I missed the opportunity). 

Anyway, the point is society and religion force us to suppress our true selves to conform. It is an example of change and adapting to survive. If I were that twelve-year-old boy, now I’d be encouraging him to fuck me (after applying some lube of some type lol). Anyway, I see Evelyn’s point, and I feel so bad for all the gay and transgender people, especially younger ones who are trying to figure out the world and the way it “hates” them so much.