Writer: Destiny1961
Subject: Pan and Dionysus
Link: Email LS666 / 25.12.2022
Pan and Dionysus
Went to a tarot site again and asked a few things. Something was drawing me to Dionysus after reading he has something to do with transvestites and today saw something about him transforming into a lion or bull. I remembered when using the poppers that time I saw a lion’s head kind of come towards me.
I asked the tarot if someone wanted me to use poppers again to get in touch with them and got a yes. I then thought about how someone once told me I could let a parasite demon in this way and asked if he could be the one. A big maybe as I sat here with thoughts of music kind of taking me away, and then it hit me. Like the sirens call there is one with the pipes, like the pied piper.
It is Pan who is known for gay stuff too. I then looked and found something that said his friend is Dionysus. I went back and asked if they were combined in an interest in me. But I started to look at pics of what they look like and something hit me. It was where I saw myself with horns in the mirror that time after poppers but then realized it was not Baphomet. I believe I saw Pan in me.
So I asked a few questions including if they wanted me to try meth and if they were going to make me a satanic transvestite whore. I won’t go into all I asked and all. So now have chills and feel like they are trying to reach or even possess me. Then saw this as a daydream.
I am walking through the woods and am hearing the pipes softly and like the rats follow. One of them even has something to do with wine. I come to a clearing and there they are. One looking like an effeminate young man naked and playing the pipes is Pan. There on a stump is what looks like a bottle, a glass of wine and what I know is a meth pipe. They see me and the young man walks over and introduces himself as Dionysus. He tells me not to be afraid of who I am or am to be as the pipes slowly calm me and almost hypnotize me.
I am told to celebrate my coming out by getting naked and we share the wine. He tells me I am halfway there as he touches and kisses my little breasts. Then he has me take a hit of the poppers as they surround me. I stand there is a daze as Pan gets behind me and blows the pipes, almost like whispering in my ear. He reaches a hand around to lull me close and is rubbing his cock between my cheeks as his music is like a seductive dance as he moves with me.
He tells me to close my eyes and I feel something warm on my lips. It is the meth pipe as he tells me to breath in freedom. Then Dionysus is pressing against me from the front as I am sandwiched between them. I am told to kiss him and feel his duality and femininity and as we kiss, Pan gets into position and slides up into me, but not in a rough, but gentle way. Dionysus is rubbing against me from the front as Pan takes me and fills me. It is like a drug entering me as I start to feel high. I then feel weird as when I open my eyes Dionysus has a beard and is in masculine form.
He is still kissing me but is now changing again as Pan backs away. They tell me it is time to become part of the jungle of life as he turns into a lion. Pan plays louder as I seem to follow the music and go to the stump and pick up the bottle and sniff the poppers and then another hit of the meth.
I then see Dionysus change into a bull. I see his cock and as I get scared Pan plays and my body follows as I bend over the stump and spread my legs. I hear Dionysus tell me I am no longer the old and now an a true transvestite and to embrace it. I feel his breath on my back and neck as he tells me to open up and then feel him push into me. I am told to take him into me and allow the two of them to inhabit me to use. Then Pan is standing in front of me and they spit-roast me and I am like a whore as the pipes guide my spirit.