Interview with Nikki

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Subject: Interview with Nikki

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How I lost my virginity

From abstinence to blasphemy

Invoking an incubus 

During mass 

Confession time 

My Beliefs 

Vivid Dreams

A day of my life

Interview with Nikki

Hi everyone. Here’s a quick intro to an amazing blogger from iTaboo. Her name is Nikki. And she is wonderful. Check out her posts above — they are really interesting — with all the right ingredients. Please join me in welcoming her to LS666 … she’s also on MEWE too. Have a perverted chat, make her your deviant friend … if only I was 20 years younger … and female … and lesbian. 

 

Hi Nikki

Thank you for your wonderful posts that I borrowed from iTaboo. You are certainly an interesting person and thank you for agreeing to talk to us at LS666 about yourself, your beliefs and where you are heading in the not-so-distant future.

Firstly, you are a devout Christian girl, is that right? What is it that makes you unable to embrace Satan and the Satanic way?

Yes, I would describe myself as a devout Christian. The fact that I feel unable to fully embrace Satan is that I do stick with the Biblical account that Satan is created by God, and rebelling against God. But he can never become greater than God, or even be a god. So I don’t see the point in actually worshiping Satan.

You say that you use prayer to banish impure thoughts; yet to seem unable to stop yourself from touching yourself. No judgment there. I think you’re amazing. What prayer would you recommend to a devout Christian trying to remain from masturbation?

There is indeed that constant tossing between sinning and remorse. My favorite prayer is the so-called Confíteor. It is not so much a prayer to refrain from masturbation but more a prayer of confession and for forgiveness. Then there is a prayer ‘to keep the presence of God’, in order to stay on His path.

You describe yourself as both “shy” but “deviant” and you even post nude pictures of yourself on iTaboo. So more deviant than shy lately?

I am relatively shy in daily life and in my interactions with people. I usually need time to get comfortable before I open up. But yes, then there is that other side … I think that somehow I feel ‘safe’ with a screen in between. It feels so liberating and exciting to expose myself, and the responses are very empowering.

You talked about losing your virginity and that your orgasms were mixed with both pleasure and religious guilt … How do you feel about breaking your hymen using the head of a statue of Mary? Isn’t that sacrilegious?

Yes, it is highly sacrilegious in one way. But to me it is also like a sacrifice to the Blessed Virgin. Dedicating my virginity to Her instead of to some impure man who is mainly after his own satisfaction. I even kissed the Mary statuette and expressed my love for Her. As young as I was, that was sincere. I really feel at peace with it and have never regretted it.

Some simple facts. How old are you? Where do you reside (I believe you live both in the US and Europe)? Are you in a permanent relationship?

I am 41 years old. I live most of the time in Pittsburgh PA, but I do have dual citizenship and have a Greek passport as well. My family has similar businesses on both sides of the pond, and I have a place of my own to stay in Greece as well. Right now I am in Europe.
No, I do not have a permanent relationship. I used to live together with a woman for about two years in the past, that was the most steady relationship I had (still very fond of her by the way).

Where do you feel more sexually free — in the US or in Greece?

That is an interesting question. I guess in Greece, or I should say in Europe. Greece is an Orthodox country, there are many possibilities for anyone with religious fetishes. Many chapels to visit as well as monasteries. And the climate allows for many outdoor activities. I love nude sunbathing, something I cannot do in Pittsburgh. And in just a few hours I can fly to Amsterdam, the most sexually liberated place in the world (I think). As a matter of fact I will fly there next week to meet a witch I befriended, and who is my mentor of sorts in the occult.

What’s your sexual orientation? Do you prefer males? Females? Trans? Younger? Much younger?

I do call myself bisexual, but I very much lean towards lesbian. Men do not have any romantic attraction to me. But I do have to admit that I crave cock every now and then. But that is pure sexual lust. I find women so much more interesting. I do correspond with some trans people (M-to-F) every so often, and I know one in real life, I think they are interesting because they have a much more female approach. I can imagine myself having sex with one (hasn’t happened), but I would not have a permanent relation ship as a partner with one.

You ask about young ones … that is a sensitive subject and it puts me a bit to shame. But let me just throw it out there; I am very fond of little girls. I’d love to cuddle and kiss one, and maybe more than that … But of course that is all fantasy.

You mention that you do have an interest and do correspond with some tranny friends (M-to-F) — what is it that makes androgyny interesting for you sexually?

What makes it interesting is that I see the appearance of a woman, which attracts me, and then there is the pleasure of a cock. So it allows one to enjoy cock (or talk about it) without having to deal with macho male behavior.

What is the most perverted thing you’ve ever done?

I guess it was masturbating in church during mass, and having an orgasm. Or maybe it was masturbating and sodomizing myself with a crucifix and leaving shit on it.

What is the most perverted thing you want to do?

Being the subject of a ritual of blasphemy, desecration, unholy baptism and sacrilege.

Assuming that it was just fantasy … What would you like to do with a pretty little girl?

Assuming it was fantasy, I’d love to French kiss her, lick her little pussy and ass, and to feel and caress her naked little body and let her explore me. A very exciting idea…

What makes you so aroused in church? Why does this take you over the edge?

That is hard to say, the whole atmosphere, the scent, the statues, the priests, the chanting. It is like I get possessed and just have to have an orgasm.

What kind of profanity and blasphemy do you like to incorporate into your sexual activities?

Tearing up a Bible and stuffing the pages in my pussy. So far I did not have the courage to do that.

What is your favorite curse word and why?

That is calling the Blessed Virgin names (hard to write down here). But she is like my spiritual hero, and calling her whore, or referring to her cunt, really turns me on.

What would your perfect partner be like? How is it going on MeWe? Have you met many like minded folks?

My perfect partner would be a woman who is as religious as me and shares my blasphemy fetish. I always fantasize about being a nun and living in the convent with my ‘roommate’ who is also my partner.

I like MeWe, it is a very comfortable platform with people from all walks of life. And totally not judgmental. Yes, I did find quite a few like-minded people; not necessarily in everything, but enough to have some interesting conversations.

What have you, Lucy and Hoku been up to?

Well they (especially Hoku) really helped me get around on MeWe, but also supported my path and encouraged others to dedicate their orgasms to my cause. I believe that that really made some changes in the spiritual realm, as my dream-life began to change into vivid erotic dreams that I still often have.

What would you say is your tipping point — where you knew that worshiping Satan and Lilith would be right for you?

Well, to be honest I still don’t know whether that is right for me. Sometimes I do, most of the time I don’t. But it is lust that gets me to that place. The real tipping point would probably be the ritual I mentioned before.

What do you think it would be like to masturbate before the Baphomet?

It would feel like engulfing in true blasphemy and leading to a massive intense orgasm.

What would make you want to participate in a Black Mass?

The temptation of crossing that line and really embracing the dark side is very strong … almost inevitable …

What’s your greatest sexual fantasy?

It must be the aforementioned ‘black mass’/ ritual, which in my mind would end in a massive gang bang.

So, you mentioned that you’d like to partake in a Black Mass — that in fact it is one of your greatest fantasies to be gang-banged in Satanic Black Mass; and even went so far to say that the temptations of the dark side are inevitable … Can you be more explicit? Much, much more?

Well, as you know I have written in great detail about this in my blog ‘The Day of my Life’. So far in my life I have been a decent woman. Of course I have my sins and pleasures, but limited and behind closed doors. But I have this strong desire to live out my dark desires without any restriction. To do everything that I know is totally sinful. That desire has been dormant for a long time and I feel that I must give in to it someday … I guess I will …

That will include a public (before a large group of people) renunciation of my faith, a baptism in urine and sperm, and then to be degraded to a whore, where men and women will take advantage of me as they desire. A debaucherously orgy that includes the use of religious objects and much blasphemous language. All this would typically take place in a ritualistic setting of a coven or sex cult.

My visit to Amsterdam next week has to do with early preparations for such an event.

Do you or could you believe in scared androgyny? Like the worship of the twin-sex demon, the Baphomet? What are your feelings about this sexually?

Yes, definitely, although I would call it demonic androgyny. In recent weeks I have regular vivid dreams of demonic orgies from which one figure in particular emerges and has sex with me. That figure, I now understand is my incubus, is androgynous and hermaphrodite. Its big phallus — which in my dreams I am able to take much more easy than I ever would in real life, both vaginal as anal — does not have a scrotum under it, but a wet luscious vagina. I cannot do otherwise but admit that it is highly arousing. I always awake from such dreams totally wet and with all the signs that I just had a very intense orgasm.

(By the way, I believe that the combination of rituals from my aforementioned witch friend as well as the advice from Hoku to me, and her request to other MeWe members have caused these dreams to begin and intensify.)

I wanted to ask a bit more on the your incubus … the androgynous and hermaphroditic incubus … it has been a fantasy of mine since I was about 12 or 13 to be fucked by a demon like this … can you tell me more (I love it, truly) … I often imagine my perfect partner to be one who would worship such an evil sexual creature like this with piss and cum and even shit … your thoughts?

As promised, hereby an update on what I am experiencing on an almost nightly basis now. You might recall from my earlier writing that I have been trying to invoke an incubus. I got some help in this from a witch with whom I have been in contact for quite a while now. But more recently I got some good advice from Hoku Lani and she asked several friends to spill their seed and dedicate their orgasms for this cause. I think that certainly has an effect, and moves dark powers.

After the 666 appeared on the display of my phone, it was quiet for a few nights. But then I began to have vivid and recurring dreams that I now have almost every night. In it I see a large number of naked bodies, all entangled and interacting with each other. They move almost like one single organism that is engaged in an erotic pulsating dance. Their skin color is not of any human kind, but rather dark greyish. In my dreams I observe them from above. It is impossible to distinguish single individuals, or even who is male or female. But I see breasts, phalluses and vagina’s. Androgynous, maybe hermaphrodites, it is hard to tell. But it is highly arousing. There is penetration, licking and sucking, sodomizing and breeding … yes, some are clearly pregnant. Suddenly I find myself among them, one of them; one with a multi-segmented orgasmic body. I am penetrated wherever possible; I feel it deep. My hands constantly feel wet vulva’s and hard throbbing penises. I got kissed and licked all over. I feel how semen is being ejected deep inside my vagina and in my anus. I feel being showered with warm golden jets gushing from multiple bodies.

Then there is laughter, sinister, creepy, increasing. And simultaneously a chanting that increases in volume and tempo and seems to be produced by everybody that makes up the tangle of naked bodies … “cum, cum, cum…” I feel it welling in my belly, it is creeping up and unstoppable … I feel something pounding deep inside of me: in, out, in , out. Electricity from my crotch to my brain. The volume of the chant is increasing, the tempo so fast that it almost sounds like one single tone, and the laughter is loud. Then I have an orgasm, uncontrollable, unlike any other, as if my clitoris explodes … and I am awake … heavily breathing, all sweaty … my hand clenched between my thighs which are all wet as are my bed sheets … I feel the wonderful sensations of a slowly fading orgasm and can only smile. The whole experience is so real that I wonder every time whether it was real or a dream. Probably both … the merging of realms …

Tell me more about your dream/fantasy and how it affects you?

I have safely arrived in Europe and met with my family here. It is nice to be here again. The coming time I will be meeting some old friends again and certainly have some ‘interesting’ encounters — In my recurring dream I kept observing this entangled mass of naked bodies, and then suddenly I was part of them. But several times one entity kept emerging out of the pulsating group and moving towards me. A slender gray colored being, of which it is hard to tell whether it is female or male. There are clearly breasts although not very big, but there is also a long thick phallus. Much bigger than normal. Penetrating black eyes stare into my face … into my soul … Then it grabs me and begins to press its hot wet body against me. I feel the phallus against my belly. And although it is physically too big to enter me, I involuntarily and invitingly open my legs. Then I feel it sliding deep inside of me. What is physically impossible happens in my dream. It enters me all the way, and I enjoy it beyond measure. I grab its ass, feel it’s anus and move my hand down. To my surprise, instead of balls, I feel a wet swollen vulva. It is a hermaphrodite! As it fucks me deep, I begin to finger the dripping cunt. I quickly move to an orgasm that is more intense as any I have ever had in normal life. This dream has happened several times now. And I believe that indeed Lilith has answered the request for an incubus/succubus. I call it a dream, but it is much more realistic than any dream.

During my trip to Europa I was sleeping on the plane with a blanket on top of me. Also then I had this dream, and when I woke up all aroused, I wondered whether no one had noticed. At least I sat alone in a row of three chairs on one side of the aisle. I had one hand between my legs, under my skirt under the blanket. And I noticed that I was very wet between my legs. It was truly as if someone had ejaculated inside me, and I was now leaking. It did not smell like me … And my other hand had been on top of the blanket. This hand had a strange smell too. And I realized it was the hand with which I had entered the entities’ cunt in my dream … A stewardess interrupted my thoughts as she said: “are you okay miss? I think you had a nightmare.”

“Yes, I am perfectly okay. I smiled back, perfectly okay.”

As I said the other time: realms are merging … It might be the beginning of a very interesting trip …

What’s in the future for Nikki?

It remains to be seen, but my dualistic nature must flip to one side or the other at some point. I’d become a nun for real, or an angel of darkness and daughter of Lilith …