What I Wanted I Got – Non-Fiction

A lengthy message which I received and have edited because of length and which I share because it brought back the memory where I found myself in a similar situation when it comes to getting fucked (the position, not the situation). The writer shares he recently decided to follow the Dark Lord. His message (edited by me):

The message:

“I believe in the Dark Lord and have just started my journey on the left hand path a few weeks ago. I still have a lot to learn … I have had a fantasy for a long time that I wanted to see my husband fuck another guy and I have pictured her with friends, my boss and others. These are people I would have never actually want her to sleep with … I have recently started to share this fantasy with my wife.  When we married we were our “first” when it comes to sex. I am not a “big” guy. I think about her having sex with guys with big or huge cocks and we have watched porn and I have pointed them out. I admit things have gotten hotter and better in bed …

“Recently I was renovating our kitchen, etc, and my best buddy and a coworker friend came over to help with the heavy lifting, etc. It took longer than expected and they ended up staying for supper. We spent the late afternoon taking a break and drinking some beers and everyone was kidding around … It was the usual “need something from the market” situation which included a call from my mother in law asking if I would pick her up and take her home from a church seniors event. I thought nothing of it,  left so I could return. Picking up what was needed was no problem but when I went to get mom in law I had to wait for her longer than i expected. I called my wife to let her know.

“When I arrived home my street was blocked by one of those “manhole” repair crews.  So I went home by another route and instead of coming up to the house by our drive  (our home sits back off the road a good distance), I took what we call the “side road” and drove up in back of the house and got out to go in.  I needed to go to the john bad so when I went in I said nothing and went to the bathroom … I heard noises and when i came out I looked into the living room, I saw my wife naked, with my best friend sitting in the huge arm chair and my wife was straddling him with her legs over the arms, taking his huge cock.

Her back was to him and my other friend had his cellphone out clicking away telling her to smile, etc … I just stood there and watched as the three of them ended up fucking each other, one always keeping an eye on the drive to see when i arrived … they even commented on on how lucky they were because I was delayed getting home … My wife was a total slut …

“I am having mixed feelings about what has happened. I haven’t told anyone about any of this. No one knows as far as I know. When I acted as if I was coming up the back porch into the house my wife ran down the front hall to our bedroom so as not to be discovered. Everyone acted as if nothing had happened and I played along …

“What to do?”

There is a lot more to the lengthy message. It reads like the short version of a porn story which is full of similar plots with the result being either a happy ending with everyone’s cocks satisfied or a broken marriage. How this will “play in Peoria” I don’t know. The guy seems sincere and I’m not going to doubt him because these things do happen everyday, often played out  beyond the sight of others. As for me, I could feel my leg muscles stretched, spread over the arms of an easy chair and a huge cock filling me full. For you see, as I read his message I couldn’t help but think about riding “Jim’s” (fake name) erect nine-incher, during a weekend on the coast a couple of years back. That’s another story.

My response:

You introduced the idea of your wife sleeping with someone else, she liked it, and now she is making  it real. It’s pretty hard to delete someone’s desire, and it’s borderline shitty to try to do that to the desire you helped cultivate. Don’t dangle carrots at your wife; she’s not a rabbit. Consistency is very useful in relationships, which necessarily involve synchronizing two or more lives that wouldn’t necessarily tend toward the same path when left to their own devices.

But you are allowed to change your mind. An open relationship is a large concept that isn’t always immediately graspable; it can be a perpetual process of trial and error. It’s not a good sign if you have misgivings about your wife sleeping with another man before it’s even happened. Now that you see it is happening, it’s vexing you and it is positively haunting you. As it stands, she has followed through and having done so, what she has experienced is part of her memory and part of who she is now and in the future. You can’t put the horse back in the barn once it is out. From what you share,  she is now screwing not only another guy, she is screwing a friend of yours.   When it comes to her fucking for recreation, I  think that you need to pick a side — if you keep flip-flopping about something so important, your wife could feel like you are messing with her head, and that’s not going to be good for your relationship.

Now that it’s happened, rest assured that the other guy is much bigger and that she may even enjoy him better, but that doesn’t mean she will leave you. Plenty of people find it easy to keep sex buddies without love entering the picture and interfering with their primary relationship. It’s awfully self-assured of a woman who has thus far had sex with one person, the literal love of her life, to assume that is exactly how things will play out, but I admire the chutzpah. You definitely need to talk about this now that you’ve seen her with them figure out a way for you to both be satisfied — would you be amenable to some other scenarios in which you are present for her extracurricular banging? — but even the worst-case scenario could turn out to be not so bad for your relationship.

One of your problems, which you haven’t shared in your message, is with your friends. There are “friends” and then there are friends. That a guy’s buddies will hit on the guy’s wife is a common occurrence and wives don’t often share that with her hubby because of the friendship and if she feels she can deal with the guy quietly. In this case I think your wife has a crush on your best friend, or friend (you don’t call him your best friend) or your coworker.

Whatever, having a crush on another man is not uncommon among married women and doesn’t mean the wife is going to stray.   What is important at this point is that these guys don’t know you know. They will, now that they have tasted the fruit, will want more and it will be hard for your wife to say “no”. Don’t expect her to go back to “how it was” because, as I shared above, her fucking the guys was a positive experience and it is a part of her sexual and sensual memory. You need to sit down with her and talk about this, telling her that you saw her. Don’t be angry or vindictive. You started this.

Remember that. Her first reaction will be to be defensive and on edge.  Own your responsibility for what happened.  Let her tell you her perspective on things and do NOT bring up anything about leaving, separation, divorce, etc.   Then the both of you need to talk about her and your buddies and what that will mean in the future.   I am not aware of your history with these guys but I will say that it has been my experience that when it comes to pussy,  friendships and family relationships often go by the wayside.  I have been hit on by friends of my husband,  often and “hard”. They make “no bones” about wanting to get in my pants. None of them have or will because of my need for discretion, etc.

You don’t share whether this was a “turn on” for you. I’m not asking you to get back with me as tell me. But you did share you watched her with the guys so I will assume, once you saw the guys undressing and then fucking your wife, you were there for some time. Many men would have walked away and not wanted to witness the scene.

I am sharing this because when you sit down to talk with your wife you need to ask yourself what is your true desire and what do you want to happen. You can’t have your cake and eat it too. But you can come very close to doing so. It’s up to you.

Most men, as I have often shared on my tumblr, want their wives to be their own personal porn stars. Well,  you have one. But she isn’t going to fuck on direction or satisfy your personal whims .. you can’t read her mind even if she appears to be doing what you want.  Wives can be and often are pleasers (as well as men) but what is in our head and what we do when we are away from our husbands or significant others … I think you get the idea.

Where is the Dark Lord in all this?  I can say he is sitting off on the sidelines waiting to see what is going to happen next. Your wife has been tempted and taken the fruit and enjoyed it. You, on the other hand, have seen your personal fantasy fulfilled, though in a way you didn’t want. You want to be in control. But how can you be when you’re sitting and watching your wife take cock and the guys are telling her what they want her to do and she is obeying them and giving them the answers they want to hear.

And then there is the bane of recreational sex today … those damn cell phones. All one needs to do is take it from their pockets and, ala kazaam, a picture is worth a thousand words, especially when it’s a wife sucking off a guy with a large cock and the guy isn’t her husband. What to do? It can certainly influence a wife to say “What the hell” and cocks become a regular item on her sexual menu. How the both of you deal with your new reality is up to you and her.

On the other hand, the Dark Lord wants each of us to have that “peace of mind” when it comes to our desires and how we deal with them. You shared that you have started your journey to follow him but you have already been wrecked on your road by this revelation concerning your wife and her response to your fantasy. Always remember she did what you wanted .. You should be pleased that you have achieved success.   Now, how do you deal with it? And her. Ave Dominum Tenebris.