Unusual Fantasies by LeftHandGrandpa – Non-Fiction

Writer: Grandpa  /  [email protected]

Subject: Unusual Fantasies

Link: Email LS666 / 06.03.2023

Unusual Fantasies  

I am going to try to explain some things about me. I will try to get this done before the weekend because, today I have gotten a text from Tony, Lori’s master of sorts, inviting me to another play date on Friday evening.

I have been a sexual being for as long as I can remember. When I was around nine, I was invited by a neighbor boy to go with him to his horse barn down the street. I was so happy because an older boy was willing to spend time with me. While at the barn, the short of it was, he pulled down my pants and slid his cock between my ass cheeks until he came. He cleaned me up, we promised not to tell and life went on. I was confused — a little embarrassed — but not ashamed.

A week later, I went back, this time when we arrived  there were two more older boys. They unceremoniously took down my pants and lay me down across hay bales. One boy sucked and licked my little balls and cock, and I believe that was my first orgasm. The other two turned me over, fucking themselves between my cheeks and one even fingered my asshole until they both came. It never happened again, but we all were buddies from then on.

By the time I was in high school I was very sexual, masturbated a lot, and that is when my fantasies became more “Unusual.” A problem that I had was my erections were never very hard, although it never affected my orgasms, it did affect my love life as a teenager. So, I masturbated more, and my fantasies continued to evolve.

My first really serious girlfriend approached me one day and said she wanted a threesome. What high schooler doesn’t?  The third person was a new boy that had moved into the school. Things were progressing, both of us naked, her on top of me, me feasting on her cunt and she on my dick while the new kid watched.

Before I could comprehend what was happening, my girlfriend scooted away from my cock, kneeling on my arms, then the new kid joined her pinning my arms. Her pussy was right above my face as he slid into her. To my protests, they fucked, he pulled out and came over her pussy. He moved away, and my girlfriend sat on my face and smeared her cum covered pussy over my face. Before she could lift off me, I wrapped my arms around her thighs, buried my tongue in her and brought her to a literal screaming orgasm. When she finally rolled off, I wiped my face, told the new kid he didn’t make her cum, I did because he couldn’t finish the job. I never spoke to her again.

Fast forward to adulthood, my fantasies fueled by my masturbation continued, and shame and guilt began to bother me. A lot. I became almost suicidal so I sought therapy. Basically they confirmed that I was a bad person, should be locked away, and I should seriously be worried for my soul.

I found a young lady, who became my mentor and led me down the left hand path. I am as I am, because I was created as such. Why should I feel guilty about things that are beyond my control? I don’t identify the Dark Lord as Satan, because Satan is a figure conceived by Christianity. My Lord predates the bible. I walk this path worshiping in my own way without the guilt and shame of the concept of having to be forgiven for something I can’t prevent by the very nature of my creation.

Three years ago, my wife and I became godparents to the daughter and granddaughters of my best friend. I found out by accident, my goddaughter was of like mind. I found out, my best friend, her father, had an incestual relationship with her for many years from early teen to just a few years before she married her second husband.

She supports open sexuality in the home, and consensual incest in the family. Her husband only recently became aware of this. She, through my guidance, and following my mentor as well, now walks her own path.  We became aware that my oldest granddaughter is sexually active after discovering she had sex with two classmates. She is now thirteen. Lori who has been in the BDSM community for quite a while, now uses her BDSM as part of a ritual dedicated to the Dark Lord.

A few months ago, she began involving Renae, her oldest in her playtime. As a way to remain sexually active, Renae now only plays with girls, although I know she has been taken by Tony at least once. Karen, who is nine has been sexually curious, and has been with Renae and her friend, who is not only her “Playmate,” but Tony’s daughter.

During a recent prayer dedication, Lori asked for Craig, her husband to be filled with lust, so he could guide his stepdaughters in their sexual journey. I intend to help with that. I have witnessed either in person, or by video shared with me, three of Lori’s BDSM play time involving my granddaughter. 

The two girls, Renae and Bailey, take great pleasure in tormenting and humiliating Lori, but ultimately Lori is allowed to orgasm. Watching this exceeds anything in my fantasies and I consider it a gift to witness such. I have seen my granddaughter, with Bailey’s encouragement and Tony’s guidance, slap her mother.

My cock hardens listening to two young girls call Lori, “Cunt, bitch, motherfucker, whore,” and many other degrading names. Renae loves to bite and abuse Lori’s breasts. They all seem to really enjoy piss play as well. The only thing to make my cock any harder would be to include little Karen, but that is not to be for a while. To the outside, my family seems like a normal, well adjusted suburban family. I have been blessed by Him, to have such a perverse but loving family, to enrich my life. My goal in the short term, is to help Lori’s request to bring Craig into the fold. 

The girls have never been modest around my wife and I. We live in the country, and during the summer it is not uncommon to be riding in the mountains, come upon a stream, and the girls strip off and skinny dip. There dress is often without panties. Only when Craig is around do they wear panties under their gowns for bed. However, I think a change is in the wind, because I have noticed both girls panty-less in the presence of Craig.

I even witnessed lately, Karen, the youngest sitting in Craig’s lap — and Craig’s hand palming her tight little ass. He is not yet aware of the blessings in his presence. As far as Lori’s BDSM practice, she sees it as a ritual of sorts. The humiliation and pain she endures signifies the daily struggles of life, and her blessed orgasm is the blessing that is received for enduring them. There is a lot of after care for both her and Renae, especially Renae, being so young, after their get together.

So XP, that is a very short synopsis of my life as it is and my journey. I would like to share more experiences as they unfold for me and my family. Please excuse any spelling or errors in grammar  and syntax, but share as you will. If others like to contact directly, that is fine. This weekend promises to be exciting. We shall see.

RESPONSE FROM XP (VIA EMAIL LS666) 

Thank you for sharing these special moments — I must say the one thing that really upsets me is the treatment that you received during your time of confusion and suicidal mindset. I know, because I have been there. You sort help … not prejudice. What they should have given you was understanding and non-judgmental support — I fucking hate these fuckers who impose their value systems on us; without understanding the consequences of their actions.

The other interesting point you make about the Dark Lord, is that in your view, was that He isn’t the same as the Christian Satan — that in fact, He predates the Bible and the whole Christian ethic. Thank you for that insight. The left handed path has brought you back from the brink and my respect and appreciation to your mentor for her belief in you.