Writer: Destiny1961
Subject: There’s A Lot Going On
Link: LS666 Email / 06.11.2023
There’s A Lot Going On
I lost my wife to cancer this week on our anniversary. I am gonna be upfront with you so please read all the way through — I have put Destiny back in her box for now as am looking for the light in all this. I have stepped through doors, that I probably should not have, and I am caught right now between dark and light.
I am unsure if it is non-binary, but I can feel all things flowing inside. I can feel the love of “Jesus” calling me while still feeling the lust of “Satan” heating me inside — I have been given that gift of vision which is also a curse. I have been calling for help and last night felt it in both parts of me. They tell me that I need to be in touch with my feminine side but they do not understand me.
I am a geek by all rights. So, last night I watched a few comic-book videos. It was late when I felt the urge. There was Spiderman and Doctor Strange — both had multiverses. I thought about an alternate universe or realm. Who am I in the other realms? As I sat there in denial of my shadow side, I had thoughts about those other realms.
I tried to deny it but realized that due to the use of hormones, my moobs were actual breasts. I felt my feminine, yet have my penis intact. I watched Doctor Strange and a few others as they left their bodies in an astral projection.
I felt the room get bright as if I were drunk or high. My spiritual self was trying to let go of the physical body. It was like two sides of me trying to take control. I could not understand. Yet I could not deny my body’s feelings. I felt warmth in my nipples and backside. There was a puffy feeling in my breasts. I had an erection. I kept rubbing myself.
The movie ended and I picked up my phone to check my social media. I sifted through the usual emails and found myself in my feminine account as I intended to clear out stuff. I found an email that guided me to the dark site, “Motherless”. I had many messages there and as I thumbed through them, I hit the wrong button or did she do that for me?
The link led to an “anal sex” video. I watched, as this genetic female, took a big cock in her ass. I skipped to the anal sex when hit another button that led me to something gay. I used to watch lots of tranny sex. But in this video, there was this guy wrapping his lips around a big hard cock. I watched it vanish down his throat. Then his ass opened up to take it over and over until sperm leaked from his hole.
I could feel “many” inside me. I then visited some “gay personals”.
My room seemed to change. Everything felt different. It was as if “she” was emerging from inside me. She turned, took my hand, and told me to follow her. We went to a room full of mirrors. She said, I just had needs that once filled would make it right — All I could see was the “Tree of Life.”
She slid back against me. As we turned to face the “Tree of Life”. We got close. I felt her or shall I say our breasts perk up. I looked down at my fully erect penis as we were naked in the “Garden”. Then, I heard the hiss of the serpent but was not scared. The serpent talked to me.
“I’m not here to deceive you, but instead to give you clarity.”
It was a sort of mix, like an Anaconda, with a rattle, and the wings of a cobra. The snake slithered its huge body around mine and its skin was oily, as if covered in semen. I felt a sexual quiver as it hugged me tightly in its coils. The serpent was looking over my shoulder.
“Eat the fruit of the Tree of Life,” the serpent said, “In this world, you already know good from bad but there is a clarity that is much more.”
With that, I ate and the serpent showed me the world in a new light. As I bit into the fruit of the Tree of Life, it tasted strong, like sweet whiskey, and made my head feel cloudy.
“Heaven is closer than you think,” said the serpent as I stared into its eyes.
I felt the serpent’s tail between my small breasts. Its coils squeezed them and it felt like we were being titty-fucked. All the while, the serpent looked deeply into my eyes as it began to squeeze my cock.
“Close your eyes,” the serpent said, “Take a few deep breaths.”
I did as it began to spew a strange hypnotic smoke — the feeling was something like a cross between breathing in poppers and the smell of a weed and something else that I couldn’t recognize.
With my eyes closed, I slipped into a trance as the serpent continued to titty-fuck me quicker — that is when I felt the serpent’s oily tail rub across my lips. I felt a pressure below, as my dick slid into the serpent’s body like a soaked sticky, yet tight pussy — the serpent began to slowly milk me. Its tail began to change into a phallus as it parted my lips and went down my throat. It then lifted us up from the ground as the serpent throat-fucked me and took me.
I was getting so excited. I always knew that I was different. I mean, I had a mustache of a man, yet female breasts. I had a feminine bottom, while still having a cock, and yet it told me …
“Some of us are special creatures,” it whispered into my ear, “You just need the right one to bring it out.”
I was now in ecstasy as I felt it milk me … and it was time. As the serpent went down and sucked my nipples, I felt it explode inside my throat and I explode too. It did not retract, instead, it stayed inside my body as I remained parallel to the ground, as if on an invisible bed.
The serpent’s head went down further on me and as it started to clean me with its mouth. I was about to explode again. I felt the serpent’s tongue slither between my ass-cheeks as it slipped into my asshole. As I exploded into the serpent’s mouth, its tongue used my own semen to lubricate me. The serpent slid between my ass-cheeks and wrapped its wings to become a phallus and pressed it against my wet hole.
I felt her inside me as she opened our hole.
Then another explosion down my throat as my body quivered. It was then that I felt the serpent’s head enter me from below. I left my body to watch as I felt it in my spirit. The serpent was opening me and then as its tail slid from my mouth — as the head retracted from me, I spat semen out on my body and felt myself flip over.
“Watch,” it said, and I felt pure gratification from its tail as it slid between my legs.
I watched it enter, my already gaped hole, as the creature
“Stop trying to justify everything,” it told me, “Gay or trans or any other. Just enjoy.”
So I just watched and enjoyed it.
“You need to be back inside yourself,” the serpent said.
That’s when I went back into my body and felt it as it took me. I felt hands turn me, as I looked up between my lifted and spread legs to see what seemed to be a human figure with no face. It had all the different sex parts both male and female. It kept changing as it took me.
“Let go,” the dark figure said, “Let go!”
I felt it go deep and explode inside me.
“There is room for everyone. Every religion. Every creed. Every gender. All. but you must let go. There is someone out there, who will take you there …”
I then found myself waking up and the movie finished.
RESPONSE FROM XP (VIA LS666 EMAIL)
I am very sorry for you loss. It’s never easy letting go of loved ones. My hope is that she wasn’t suffering too much in the end. After passing, they are always with us, inside. I hope by sharing this email, that there are others at LS666 that also feel your pain and suffering — and the challenges that you face personally. Thank you for sharing your dream — I hope I did in justice in my re-write — and my sincerest love and best wishes to you and to Destiny. XP