Writer: Destiny1961
Subject: The Devil’s Music (Heavy Metal)
Link: Email LS666 14.03.2022
The Devil’s Music (Heavy Metal)
So allow me to set this up, as it is going to be a mix of times. A mix of different technologies as I find myself going back and forth. But this is what is coming to me, or my shadow self Serinity and may be to fracture my mind for future programming. As you guessed I am a conspiracy theorist and have delved into the whole, Illuminati stuff, including M.K.Ultra and mind control. Also the whole backwards messages in rock and roll. I have found I have some weird ability now to fall into a sort of trance as have been blessed (or cursed) with seeing visions.
I have always looked more like my female siblings and have had what some called, a motherly instinct. I also find my mind goes outside the box more the it should. So as I lay here in my bed and talk to the spirits of the abyss and ask to feel my feminine demoness inside I am getting this. It will go in circles and switch things from different time periods as I am getting, but there is some sort of message here somewhere. I am very young, not sure of age as I am about s to go for my first confirmation.
I have recently been allowed to grow my hair out and am standing there in my red ceremonial robe and get a few pics with grandma. I feel weird as the ceremony is like that of a cult , as we have to go through things to show we are good people. The pictures come back ( and will send if anyone wants to see ) and I look like a little girl in a red dress. Of coarse I am a little ahead of my time and have a great imagination. The lyrics by The Police comes to mind.
You dont have to wear that dress tonight, which refers to a red dress and a hooker. I wonder about my looks as get picked on a lot. It gets to a point I wish I could get revenge, but that is an evil thought. Maybe the opening needed for the devil? I am older now so lets not think about that. I am into heavy metal and keep hearing about how it is evil, but the sound pumps me up. I am into groups like Maiden and Ozzy and Sabbath.
I have also found myself starting to experiment with drugs. At this point my hair is long enough to put in a tail and actually pigtails. I do that and look in the mirror and its like it is some girl looking back. Again I wonder, as I have already had a few encounters that are wrong. In fact, the first true sissy encounter and me trying drugs happened at the same time.
I was dressed and was talked into trying weed and found myself on my knees sucking another guy as a girl. Now the mind is a wonderful thing and can be programmed, or so they say. I find myself researching mind control, but is it real? Then its self hypnosis, which most is geared towards sissy stuff. Of coarse lets go back to the music, can it really says stuff when played backwards? Wow, what a time I am in, this itself isnt possible, is it?
I am sitting at a computer,while playing some metal on my cassette player. It is close to Halloween, where all the demons are let out … For a few days I am alone and able to not only smoke some weed ,but have found coke and poppers, not to mention having access to pain pills and alcohol. A nice little one man party. So I start to do some of my usual theorist research on something about the church when feel led to some mond control shit. Time to prove the theory wrong, so I start to watch a few sissy hypnosis videos.What wild feelings and think may continue as I smoke a bowl.
The research now turns up how man are turned into sissies for Satan. Whatever … So I watch the rock videos and see all those groupies and sluts on the videos throwing themselves at the bands and the stories of backstage drugs and sex and orgies. At first I picture myself wanting to be a frontman as he does not have to go after girls, they come to him in droves. I look at those sexy, horny bitches and the hypnosis sets in. Now I think about it from there side, sex,drugs and rock and roll.
I imagine getting high as a bitch and sucking and getting fucked by the band.I have found myself taking hormones to build tits and figure how many of them like teenage girls with small tits and wow, need to get my head back. It has been a while and I stick with my metal and find myself dying my hair black,in a goth way as evil is wild. I have now found myself researching black magick and satanism and stuff.I talk to a few people who are into the darkness who warn me but something is on my mind.
Then I come across a video of a young man who grew up in the church and was in the choir. He was god fearing and then when he went to college he experimented with drugs. The video has a pastor trying to exorcise 3 demons from him as they give their names and talk about how they use music and stuff to get people. That ” gateway” they talk about with drugs. For some reason I have now found my way into a dark site, which feature kink. It starts with some BDSM stuff and then I am actually watching women getting knotted by dogs and fucked by horses and even men getting fucked by them.
I find myself looking at midget sex and how a little person has a big cock fucking a grown woman. Then satanic and demonic sex and how through sex there is power, but through anal sex, or sodomy you can be set free, set free? It has been a couple years and my mind has wondered many places and I now have small moobs and feminine urges and actually rind I suck cock better then some women, and each time I swallow a load its like I feel this power. It is a couple days away from Halloween and I sit and look at some hypnosis and satanic videos as I take a couple pills, washed down by my friend Jack Daniels. I do a line of coke and smoke a bowl as I listen to some Sabbath.
I like the songs, “Fairies wear boots” and picture them. But I have read about the song Black Sabbath and how it came about. Seems the bass player on night had a vision as he was into the occult. He saw a figure at the bottom of his bed and told the band and the song was written. I loved the words, but that pounding beat was great as well. I am in my basement and there is an old mattress that before we threw it away actually did a few things on it.
I lay it down as I am truly fucked up from the drugs and all and I put on the song. I listen a few times as I keep rewinding it, and then it happens. I hit rewind but it starts to play backwards and is talking to me. I do not understand the words but what they are saying. It even warns to stop it or I will end up in a dark place. I have the song as my ringtone as well. But it is like the words are prepping me for something, almost like hypnosis.I let it play and then head to my bed and as I lay there my tone goes off, but it is like some sort of trigger as I go into some kind of animated state. I look at the bottom of my bed and there is the dark figure,as the songs says, dressed in black and pointing at me.
Then like an out of body experience I feel myself go through the floor til am on the mattress. The basement starts to fade as I am in some sort of forest and the mattress is lying in mud.I start to hallucinate as those faires appear. They are flying and jumping over me as mud splashes on me to signify I am dirty. This I can handle but some are male, some female and there are midgets there. The faires seem all to be about nine or ten years old, the female ones with very tiny breasts and males small dicks.
I watch as they dance around me and chant. I look down as am dressed in what looks like a groupie type lingerie with my special parts open.One of the females splash mud on my dick as it becomes erect, but the mud is used like lube as she sits on my dick. I feel her tight hole take me in and start to milk me. Some are shooting on my prone body and pissing on me as well.
I am a gross mess of piss, semen and mud.
One of the males slide across my muddy body and then shoves his little muddy dick down my throat. He grabs my head and shoves till his balls go into my mouth almost like a dogs knot and hold him there as I taste mud,piss and semen. I feel myself explore inside the one as the other does in my throat and it is like I go limp. They start to piss and cum on me and take turns using me sexually. But this is not how I pictured fairies as they are children.
I lay and feel myself as if a transvestite or shemale as I can feel my small moobs.I am being molested snd then hear a voice that says, “Playtime is over children,” and as I lay there I see a mix of what seems to be midgets and band members. I am lifted and taken into a room that resembles a backstage dressing room and am now molested by the midgets as the fuck my face and and ass for the first time.
I am bent over and tied to some sort of apperatus. Then there are two black midgets who are hung like horses who tell me this was what I wanted. One shoves down my throat and then the other up my ass as I am bound. I see out of the corner of my eye that figure again and he is smiling.I am then pounded by the group of little one with huge cocks til I almost pass out and then am left there oozing.
The figure now approaches me and lets me loose as I am bent over and weak. He tells me I had always wanted to be a slut groupie in an orgy and fucked senseless by the band.I am told I am no longer a man and its time. I hear band members walk in as I ask where the other girls are and he tells me I am it. I am given something to drink and am high as he bends me down again and as I hear the members simply say, “Fresh meat.”
He grabs my head and pulls his massive cock out. I gag and spit up as I hear one say I am a sloppy bitch, but thats the way they like it and he shoves his cock up my ass. They take turns on me all over the room in many positions. I now have lost control as one calls me by the name Serinity and my inner demon takes over. I find myself going over to a simple groupie as it would be considered lowering myself and I pull down his pants and suck him off. The band calls in others and I ride and suck and fuck as my holes are filled and cum is in me and on me like some sort of porn star. I then seem to pass out and when I open my eyes am in my basement on that mattress looking up at that figure. He leans over and puts his hand between my moobs and I feel a slight pain as it is like I go mindless. He pulls something out of me and eats it. I feel connected to him now as he pulls me to the edge of the mattress and tells me I belong to him now, he lifts my legs and shoves into my wrecked hole.