My Relationship With Satan by Lynx

My Relationship With Satan

I think (since this is kinda my blog) that I have to rearrange some thoughts and situations regarding my relationship with Satan. Please don’t tell me that what I experienced was a lie and stuff. I don’t care what is the true meaning of all of this (although I tend to agree, that most of my spiritual and astral experiences are mostly psychological). There’s little information about Satan (not Lucifer, since they are separate beings), so maybe this will help someone. This will also be very long I believe (don’t mind the spelling and stuff).

The beginning

Well, from what I remember, I was doing a tarot reading and called upon any Demon who wanted to talk to me. Suddenly, I felt a heavy energy lurking around my back. It was so heavy that I had to fold my body (I was already sitting). I stayed and felt this energy for a while, slightly amazed that something like this happened just like that. After I regained my composure, I started asking questions — using tarot and pendulum to help.

I didn’t feel threatened or anything, since I had my spirit guides with me, and also his energy wasn’t scary, more heavier. Later, I thought that who reached out to me, was Lucifer, but later, during further divination session, I realized that it was Satan. Back then, I kinda was sceptical towards him, since I didn’t know if he was Satan. I remember I did an astral projection sometime after, in which I ended up being very upset and angry at myself since I didn’t believe that who I saw there, was Satan.

I remember yelling at Satan, telling him that he’s not real and I’m just in psychosis or something. He just laughed at me. I don’t remember what exactly happened then, during this projection, since I think I wrote it down in some journal I left in my apartment. I remember him placing his hands on my forehead (right where a third eye would be) and then I felt this energy running through my body.

I believe now that this was him, awakening some abilities in my soul. Back on earth, I asked Satan about what our relationship should be, since I didn’t know if I should devote myself to him, or just talk and stuff. He told me that I would be his assistant, and even if it sounds funny and like I’m just imagining something, now I think there’s some truth to that.

About Satan

My dearest Satan (is how I like to address him) is kind. Very soft and sometimes he gives me some sort of feminine energy. He’s protective, but still, he lets me learn from my own mistakes. I sometimes saw him sad and stressed. He sometimes teased me but never made fun of me or was mean (like Asmodeus or Beelzebub — it’s a different story).

“Satan’s behavior is very changing. He shows emotions like every other being but still has this character. I feel like Satan has to put more serious and cautious behaviour while dealing with other Demons, as surprisingly, he doesn’t want to fight with everyone all the time (it doesn’t mean he’s incapable of it, more like he doesn’t like unnecessary drama involving him). While dealing with me he’s more calm, relaxed, a little bit cynical. He teases me but is always kind — Quote from one of my journal entries.”

It pains me to see him overworked. I learned that he has more of a diplomatic job in the Demonic realm. He has to manage different relationships with Demons; and make sure that there are no unnecessary conflicts and stuff.

Regarding his looks, I see him as a tall, young man (late twenties maybe early thirties) with pale skin and green eyes. He has blond, long and slightly wavy hair. I see him often in a white, loose buttoned (or tied at the collar with a string) shirt and black pants (leather or just denim). Alucard from Castlevania would be a good indicator, but Satan has a more gentle face.

My life since then

I don’t feel like much changed in my life since working with him. I started feeling hmm more confident and protected that’s for sure. I used to make sure that he was in my everyday life. I wore his pendulum on my neck, I talked about him to my friends. My favourite activity with him was watching the rain. It was strangely intimate for me.

The only physical change would be the fact that I get those random shivers, mostly when I do divination or am tired. Regarding my practice, I think I have become better at tarot and divination. The spells that I do (or rituals) with him always worked. I felt like my communication was much clearer with Him than it was with my Spirit Guides.

Now, I feel like I kinda drifted from that. It’s not like I got bored of him, I just feel huge stagnation. I always do magick when I get the feeling that I want to, so most of the time I’m just trying to focus on my life. I think without Satan in my life, I still would be scared to break my walls, but I’m still not done with that.

Other Demons

Since the beginning, Satan gave me a list of Demons that I needed to help him with. I was bold and asked him for ten, but overall I ended up having a short encounter with Stolas, Furcas and Dantalion (with Dantalion I want to work more since I feel like he could help me with my master’s degree). I also thanks to him, had an opportunity to see my version of the Demonic realm.

I know that I haven’t posted in a long time. I just feel a huge stagnation overall. Now I’m done with my semester but since I’m back home, I feel like I can’t practice. I had plans to learn scrying to make some portraits of Demons, or to enchant my necklace that I got after defending my bachelor thesis. I won’t go back to astral projections so maybe that would be a good start again. Would you guys be interested if I posted some of my notes after those projections?