My First Comment Here  by Mark666 – Non-Fiction

Writer: Mark666

Subject: My First Comment Here

Link: LS666 / 24.10.2022

My First Comment Here

This is my first comment here. I am a practicing Christian, but around eight months ago, while sniffing poppers, I watched some Satanic hypno porn and called out to Satan. After I came I was so full of fear, guilt and repentance, that I never looked at any again for a while. Then around three months ago I watched some more and over the past few weeks I watch it every day.

Bit of back story — I discovered masturbation by accident at eight years old. I didn’t really know what I was doing, but it felt good! Then when puberty hit at eleven to twelve years old I started lusting. It was over girls in class, pin-up models, the usual, but deep down I knew I was different. One day reading a Sunday newspaper, they were reporting on a prolific child murdering pedo in Scotland and my cock got so hard for it. I stroked to it, imagining I was his daughter and had molested me. That’s when cross-dressing came in. I’d wear my mother’s or sisters underwear and clothes and wank. I knew then that I just wanted to be a punk bitch for men.

Fast forward many years of repression and guilt and one day while looking in the mirror, I felt a voice say “You’re a pedo!” I was so turned on that I started wanking and looking in the mirror saying it out loud, telling myself that I loved being one. I’ve also always been into shit, piss, zoo, basically anything perverted.

I never associated any of this with Satan, I was an atheist. Then about seven years ago, I became a Christian and that led up to this point. I still cross-dressed and played with dildos during the past seven years, but I was always trying to repress it and had repressed my attraction to young girls. Now I realise that all my life Satan has been calling me, he knows how depraved and perverted I am and the call keeps getting stronger. I feel so conflicted, I would really appreciate any help people could offer me on this path.