I Have Two Tattoos – Non-Fiction

“ … I have two tattoos. One is a pentagram and the other is a spade. I thought having them now that I am single again would be a draw but find that they are a hindrance and I am avoided by many old friends. Do you have tattoos? What is your opinion about them? …”

She is divorced, a working woman back into the dating scene. Having been married for 10 years, she is now, in her words, “Free and feminine” (her phrase), follows Satan. By feminine she means “feminist” and dates black men as a sign of her, “Free attitude” when it comes to sex and things sensual. She has taken the “life route” (her words) she has because she wants to, “Her own woman”.

I’ve heard similar phrases from others. In my opinion, she has decided to engage in behaviors which reject her previous lifestyle. A term I often use is, “Saint to slut”, though that may not be the best comparison but I believe the phrase is an accurate expression of this divorcee’s, “Condition”.

But she is experiencing a roadblock of sorts in her journey because she has taken a couple of steps which  haven’t helped but hindered so she, in my opinion, is doing as we women do. Seeking advice she is in fact seeking support for what she has done because women she is close to have criticized her tats … especially since she is turning 42.

She admits she, “Went over the top” rejecting her past and showing she is still appealing, she leapt into the current popular practice of  getting a tattoo. All the craze, and wanting to be included among the women she met in the current, “Dating scene”,  she decided to proclaim her newfound faith (satanism-the Satanic Temple, encouraged to join by girlfriends who are abortion advocate) by getting a small pentagram inked on her shoulder.

Later, she doesn’t share how it happened, she had a spake inked where you see it in the photo attached, readily seen when she wears a bikini or is naked, etc. Both, she shares, are now permanent declarations of who she is. At first wickedly proud that she was being, “Bold” by doing so, she has discovered her marking herself as she has is a hindrance — experiencing criticism and rejection from women and men, some because of what the tats mean, a few because she has been inked. So be it when you are 42. We reap what we sow. That is what she shares with me as she asks the age old question in these circumstances she finds herself in, “Isn’t what I have done okay?”

My response:

The Dark Lord has not problem with a follower deciding to be inked in whatever way they wish. But  he wants us to be aware that each of us have our own opinions, etc, about how others present themselves. For the most part, our opinions of others are passing if we don’t know them but if a person is asked or knows the other intimately, good friends especially don’t always agree. And what appears to have happened is that our divorcee, “Hot in more ways than one and right out of the divorce court, has determined to show the world she is her, “Own woman”, and leapt into her new lifestyle without a lot of thought about the journey.

For example: she is, and I have shared this, a non-satanist satanist because she joined the Satanic Temple as a sign of her angry rebellion. She is, at least, now beginning to determine if the Dark Lord is, “For her”. At present she shares that now that she has read my articles she is, “On the left hand path”, to discovering what it is to have a real personal relationship with His Wickedness. Maybe, if she comes to that point if she hasn’t already, she will be able to deal with her feelings of rejection by peers because of her tats.

The women I know who follow the Dark Lord have satanic jewelry and not satanic tats. Tats mean different things to different women and the discreet wicked tat is fine. A devil can be acceptable. A pentagram is quite another issue. The former signals, ‘I’m wicked”, or, “Can be wicked”, and speaks to the sensual and sexual. A pentagram speaks to something else. Even the witches have issues with it. We will wear the jewelry but not the marking if we are sincere and serious because the tat doesn’t show us in our best light. Its a step below the, “Tramp stamp”, which is now unpopular with woman who don’t have problems with being inked in other ways.

One of the problems that this divorcee is dealing with is that she is inked at all because her present lifestyle is, she shares,  diametrically opposed to her past. Our former wife admits now that what has happened was done out of anger and, “Wanting to show her ex-husband …” What she admits to me is all of this happened to get back at him in some unknown way and she has only ended up hurting herself. In a short exchanging of messages between us, it didn’t take long for her to admit that he didn’t really care, had gone on with his life and she wasn’t in any way a part of it anymore. Her, “I will show you”, ended up, she shares, with her admission that all she has done is show herself to be the woman he wouldn’t want in his life and he was right to walk away from the marriage.

What truly caused issues was the spade tat. Sex and black men have always been a staple of the gossip groups and fantasies and even, “Doing it” but when she, for some reason she can’t seem to explain, was inked with the spade near her cunt  she was seen as, “Parading her pussy”, and rejecting white guys which wasn’t her intent.

At the same time, while we women will talk about it and enjoy it, its isn’t the staple of our sex life and her tat was telling everyone it was for her. Since seeking black men or having black boyfriends on the side wasn’t the staple of the women she ran with much less her women friends, she was seen a, “Detriment”, in that if there was a beach weekend, pool party or other event where the mark would be seen, she would be sending a message that wasn’t wanted by the others. No one, she shared, had any issue with her fucking blacks. But her being blatant and drawing unwanted attention to the fact  was something her women friends didn’t want to deal with.

The fact that she proclaimed her preferences with a permanent marking was a problem for them.

What emerged as we messaged back and forth was maybe she was acting likeshe was 22 instead of 42. She admitted that she did, “Sometimes”, flaunt her newfound, “Freedoms”, while with her friends when she needed to be more discreet and discerning.

Another thing but not important but I will mention it, is the fact she still wears her wedding ring on occasion especially when she was with other married women. She saw doing so as being, “Part”, or the group and not seeming like a third wheel. She also admitted it could be a, “Cock magnet” (my words) but even wearing her rings was criticized by women she admired who thought she should sell  the items. But, again, this isn’t the topic is it?

I have more than once shared that we women, because we are female and have the bodies we do,  are walking advertisements for whatever simply because we are who we are and men, especially, will have an opinion.   And we women do also. About other women even those we call friends. I’m not going to get into the nature of women’s relationships because that can be involved and I’m not writing another Wendy’s Wisdom About Women, etc.

Having your body inked can be a hindrance. And for most the matter is one of permanence. Fads come and go.   Something popular today isn’t tomorrow. Its like lower back tats. Attractive yesterday. Tramp stamps today. More than once I have heard an attactive wife today tell me she didn’t get this or that tat because she simply thought about how she would look at seventy. But that isn’t the issue here. Our divorcee’s dilemma has to do with today. There are no tat requirements for followers of the Dark Lord.

There are not requirements for any outward permanent markings when you decide to become a devotee of His Wickedness. It’s okay if you do but expect, as with all decisions we make, there can be consequences we didn’t expect. What is good for one may not be good for another.