Gemini. Both Male and Female. by Destiny1961 – Non-Fiction

Writer: Destiny1961

Subject: Gemini. Both Male and Female.

Link: Email LS666 / 30.01.2022

Author’s Note: A tale of voodoo and black magick and sex magick.

Gemini. Both Male and Female.

I sit here lost as I am torn into parts … I am a Gemini and feel it is much more then simple twins. Is it represent dark and light, male and female and both being in one. I have always been shy and have what some call a motherly instinct. I try to please other first. But have always liked playing different roles as a kid, which at times included me taking a female role.

I am older now and sex is now part of the equation, but is it sex or lust. I remember back to the first time a girl sucked my dick and how it felt, but how she seemed to like it too. Then fucking her and the feel of her tits as she loved it. I think about how it tasted when I first ate pussy and how I had an oral talent and liked using my mouth. I was raised in the church so such thing were passe and wrong.

But if one only knew what was in my head. I sit and look back to the first time I  let a male friend top me and the weird feeling of not being a man but how it felt when he shot inside me and the feeling of something. I remember sucking my first dick and the taste of it and his semen. Where did it turn and where is it going as I love the feel of lust.

Years back I decided to become born again and at one point was blessed with spiritual gifts, or were they a curse, as the more in tune I was with the spirits the more I was with demons as well. I started to have thoughts of sexual pleasure that knew no bounds, where you could just be sexual — not male or female — but just sexual.

I sit here as I think back to those girls and their bodies as, due to the jealousy I wanted breasts to feel it so started to take hormones. I now have small man tits and like to rub a toy against them and find myself licking and sucking the toy and sliding it into my now somewhat feminine ass. But this is wrong, how can I get rid of these doubts and guilt — sex is beautiful, but lust is so hot — can I simply just drop into a space where I do not have to think and just enjoy, but is this not the devils playground? I listen to simple self-hypnosis, but it says it only works if you truly want it, well, seems maybe.

Its been a bit as have found myself going from simple hypnosis to looking into darker possibilities ,but where does it lead, a point of no return? I find there are triggers so you can go into a new world and yet come back and find myself falling into some new identity. It is like a split personality and it is strong. I hear voices telling me I am special and have power and magick inside me that can take me to new places and find myself looking into black magick and even voodoo. But can someone be taken into a new space or new spirit and be brought back, be made new? I find myself in sites that seem to be drawing me in and meet a few people who tell me they feel great power inside me as I am different and am being held down by beliefs and the worlds view.

I decide to start to look into some stuff when I come across things about succubus and incubus and how the draw power through sex in dreams and wonder as I seem to fall into some sort of trance. As I lay I feel something and there are two figures there — one of a man and one woman — who tell me the power is in the circle and to complete the circle will give power as they have sex with me. I feel slightly drained as they tell me to complete the circle. I awake and start to research to no avail as I hit chat room after chat room. I notice a list building more inside and must find out.

I start talking to someone who tells me they feel something from me, but I am being blocked by old standards. By religion and gender. They tell me to think outside the box as the universe has special plans for me. They tell me were are simple energy and that things like the bible leave out things. They tell me that Lilith was the first woman but she refused to lay under Adam and so a rib was taken to make another female. They go on to say that the whole thing meant that Adam procreated basically with himself and Eve was made from him. They went on to say that Eve was in fact part of him so she had both genders inside. While I do not understand why this was brought up I now feel I am more then a simple human being. My mind now racing as I start to talk about the use of magick and even voodoo to release what is keeping me from being what I am called to and enjoy those lustful times. Again I here about completing the circle and how it has power.

I start to look up and try to perform some magick rituals and slightly feel have touched the other side when start to use things like poppers to open my mind. I find someone tell me that is not a good idea as it can open me up to bad things, and yet one person tells me it is good to be loose. I am told maybe a little drink as well and maybe some pot. I find myself using some drink as an offering to whomever I am trying to reach and find myself calling out through that second personality. It is sort of feminine and she seems to call out to Lilith and Satan himself. I find myself kneeling in the dark as what seems to be an angel visits me, he is the most beautiful and tells me I am special. He tells me he is Lucifer and that the world is not ready for one like me but there is a special place if I go.

I find myself in another chat room as I wonder if magick and voodoo can actually change me as I find a place to visit. It is a voodoo type bar that is gender friendly and all that. I go to visit and am sitting at the bar when a drink is sent my way. Along comes a beautiful woman who sits and share a drink. But the drink is very strong as she tells me she feels my spirit. She rubs my crotch and tells me I need to let go. She asks a weird question as she wonders if I want to have sex with her. She tells me she knows someone who can complete me, but I need to let go of some things; and asks if she can help. She tells me to close my eyes and picture the best sex I can had, as she drops and sucks me. She tells me to let go of gender or religion and just enjoy as she drains me and I feel weak. She tells me her hubby is a psychiatrist and spiritualist — and can take me to completion — if I let them.

I find myself going to meet him at what seems to be an old church turned into an office. There is an exam table and a rug covering something on the floor. He hands me a drink and tells me to tell him everything. I tell him about feeling lost and about my visions and my gifts and as if the drink opened me up. I ask him about the myth about succubi and power and he says there is true sex magick. He lays hands on me and tells me there is power through the gifts that needs to be shared and that there is pure lust inside that needs release. He tells me he can bring it out; but I must learn to drop religion and my thoughts pertaining to gender; and he has a few files for me to listen to. They will make me a bit ditzy , he says as he laughs, as I must learn to not overthink. He tells me he wants a commitment first and had me sign something as I do not even read it. It is some sort of contract. I take the files and go home and begin to listen to them.

They are deep and hypnotic with a mix of voodoo and the more I listen the hornier I get but its like I do not feel like a man, or even feminine, but pure lust. I call him and he calls me back to him. I go to his office and before going into the back room he offers me a drink and talk. He then has me take a hit from a bong, which I do not refuse and the drink has me start to hallucinate. He calls in his wife who is dressed in what looks like dominatrix lingerie and I see she has a bulge in her panties.

She comes over and tells me she used to be like me and now is free. He goes into the room to prepare it as she undresses me. She puts nipple clamps on me and something on my penis. She slaps the tiny breasts I have from the hormones and my penis; and then guides me into the room. I am sat in the exam chair as she pulls out a mouth spreader and speculum.

I barely can make out the room as in the center there is a sex swing hanging over a pentagram. It has candles at the points and one in the middle. He walks over and they start speaking in Latin and though I do not understand the language it seems they are serving me up. She puts the spreader in my mouth and then a mask over my face with laughing gas, but not enough to make me sleep and  then spread legs and the speculum slid in and opened.

I lay there as he walks over with a bag of blood and pours some in a chalice and they chant and he draws a pentagram on me, but as he does I am slightly cut as my blood mixes with it. I feel it drip as I am guided and put in the swing face down and feel the heat coming up.

I look down, as they connect a wire from my penis and the clamps, to hooks in the floor. He then takes the contract and puts it over the middle candle. As it turns into smoke — it is like it become a small dragon — and goes into the opening of my asshole; and inside me as I see what seems to be fog coming from the floor through the circle. As the blood drips onto the floor it is like water hitting a hot pan as it evaporates and turns into spirits that enter my two holes. I feel a buzz come through the wires into me as if charging me.

I lay there as it is now like a cloud of smoke connects the two pentagrams together and my inner soul feels weird. He now gets naked as I see his massive cock for the first time and he tells me I will love it. She grabs my head and pisses in my mouth and he does into the open hole from the speculum. As it hits the floor, more spirits rise and they enter my holes.

They speak in tongues. They ask me to give then what they need. In return, they give me the lust I desire — as this will complete the circle.

They remove all devices and she stands at my head and her husband behind me — both of them enter my body — as his cock stretches my hole. They ask for my body to accept them and they go all the way in both sides. She is all the way down my throat as he is up my ass and they call for completion and kiss. As they kiss it is like the circuit is complete.

They begin to quiver, and me as well. I notice, out of the corner of my eyes, the points of the pentagram now shoot laser like lights from the one on the floor to its matching spots on me. I feel buzzing and heat inside as thick smoke comes from the floor and into me as they shake and shoot into my body. I am fucked hard, as they seem to extract power and fill me with pure lust. I find myself unable to think, as they pull out of me. There’s a kind of glow emitting from the part of them.

They pull me from the swing. They put me on the exam table. My legs are placed in stirrups, as they now both kneel. I see a bright light … it is as if there’s an angel that joins us — it’s beautiful — he is Lucifer. He has a huge cock and tells me that it is mine. He says that there is so much more to be taken from me. He leans over to kiss me and I feel his head against my hole.

I get excited. He asks if I want it. And then as quickly as I blink he changes … He grows horns and his legs become that of a goat. Lucifer grabs my dick and stokes it until I shoot over myself and onto the pentagram. My semen seems to soak into the pentagram — Lucifer says that I am his now — that I am now pure lust. He shoves his cock up into me. The demon fucks me hard and says that I must enjoy all the lust that is still to come.