Writer: Destiny1961
Subject: Dreams, Drugs, And Destiny
Link: LS666 Email / 07.12.2023
Dreams, Drugs, And Destiny
I have seen how you and others write, in a way, that adds to how people communicate, if that is the right way of putting it. It’s a proper writing technique that I never got.
I have been broken since my wife passed. I have looked into light HRT and now have even been communicating with a younger woman — though she follows the light. I found out that my brother-in-law died yesterday, and it’s tough, as this means my sister-in-law, lost her sister and husband in just over a month.
I am this “fat old man”, and yet this younger woman is so beautiful. I look at her big breasts and yesterday we even talked about sex. I am broken into two right now. I see her breasts, and as a man, I want to fondle them. She even talked about feeling me inside her and my mind went crazy.
While I could picture my dick inside her wet pussy, I picture someone’s dick inside me. I want her, yet I want to be her. She is straight. While she drinks socially, she doesn’t smoke or do any drugs.
I have looked up a place where I can get the HRT, with minimal talking to others, though I would have to talk to a doctor first. Through the clinic, I found a church that represents many religions and even preached to enjoy sex. It preaches to males, females, and transsexuals — it’s a hybrid. They even worship, Gaia.
I know you have said that you do not believe in a physical God or Satan, and I have read some of the Satanic Bible, which says the same but is more spiritual. It also talks about indulgence, sexually and otherwise.
Everyone has dreams of a perfect life or partner. If we see someone we like, we have thoughts and dreams about them. We even picture a moment with them. How many times has a man seen a beautiful woman, and has desired to take them to dinner; watch a movie; or even have sex with them — If that guy indulges in some drugs, that dream maybe even a little more vivid.
We all have another side. Lord knows I think outside the box.
We can also connect with the energy around us as well. I can say, I feel that I have opened up over the past few weeks. I have wanted to give up my male life. You know, I like my sissy and even Satanic hypnosis. I have opened up my energy to outside forces as well.
You also know, that while under the influence of some drugs, we see things that may or may not be real. Using my poppers, I have watched a few simple brainwashing videos and thought about the possibilities of the sexual aspect of being feminine.
I have even thought about prostitutes, and how open they are, and the strange part was how a simple message became distorted. They say, one will lay down their life for those they love. It came over, as one will lay down their body for this.
So, what I am about to write, I do not know what to call it, as it’s leaning towards “Do dreams cum true?” — I had this nice dream that ended a little dark but unlike the other dreams, I believe that this one is possible. Am going to write and tweak it a little but keep it within the realm of possible.
RESPONSE FROM XP (VIA LS666 EMAIL)
I understand your loss and can feel your struggles. For now, take things as they come. Don’t get ahead of yourself, darling. You have a lot to give and need love and understanding — if thus young beautiful woman makes you feel good … whether you want to fuck her or want to be her … just enjoy the sensations. Don’t put yourself down or think negatively — we all have challenges, big and small — yours are not surmountable, just that they feel overwhelming at the moment.