Cumon Manger by Hoku Lani

As a child, I grew up in a strict Christian household, where the celebration of Christmas was a significant event. However, as I got older, I found myself feeling increasingly detached from the festive atmosphere. I struggled to connect with the religious aspects of the holiday, and I felt like an outsider in my own family.

One year after discovering Lilith, as I was helping my mother set up the nativity scene, I found myself staring at the baby Jesus figurine. I felt a strange connection to the tiny, vulnerable creature, and in that moment, I experienced a sense of comfort and security that I had been missing in my life.

Since then, I have made it a ritual to masturbate on baby Jesus during Christmas. For me, this act is not about sexual pleasure, but rather a way to reconnect with the spiritual side of the holiday. The baby Jesus figurine represents a symbol of hope, love, and innocence, and by engaging in this act, I feel like I am able to tap into those emotions and find solace during a time of year that can often be challenging for me.

I understand that my actions may be controversial and offensive to some, but I so love doing this and I hope it has provided some insight into why I do what I do. Ultimately, my goal is not to cause harm or distress but to find a way to cope with my emotions and connect with the spiritual side of Christmas in my own unique way. Salvete Lamia!