Writer: Destiny1961
Subject: Contemplation
Link: L666 Emails / 30.05.2024
Contemplation
As I sit here in a pair of stockings and bra and panties I realize there is more than what the world knows and accepts. I indulge in some poppers and meditate and contemplate. What is funny is the two bottles of poppers, one named Hellfire and the other holy water. I think about being raised as a boy to call on the name of Jesus and how now I may not be a girl but something in between and am calling on a different name.
Lucifer has created the most beautiful angel. I wonder if he’s handsome or feminine. I picture him before his maker — who threw him away — how do you throw away something that beautiful?
I hit my poppers as I watch a dark demonic porn video and try to picture him. My male side pictures this manly man who is full of muscle while my feminine side pictures him maybe with a little softer chest, almost breasts, and with the poppers bringing out the lustful side I picture him with a huge cock hanging between his legs.
I take a hit of the holy water and picture the difference between Jesus and Satan. My God-boy male side, while sitting here in feminine attire tries to control as my mind pictures Jesus as this glowing figure as we read about. The other side is Satan as we stereotype him as red with a tail and goat legs. He has horns and a snake tongue.
My feminine spirit looks at the tongue and would love to tongue kiss him or feel it slide up my hot hole. My feminine side starts to look him over and you know where it looks. He almost looks like the statue of Baphomet with both male and female parts. Between his legs is this big cock that has ribs and pleasure bumps like a sex toy. The head is slightly pointed as if to make it penetrate easier. I can see its eyehole as if staring at me and seducing me.
I now take a hit of the hellfire and relax for a minute as I grab my toys and slide them in me. Oh, the pleasure of it sliding in and out of my fuck-hole as my tiny little man breasts tingle. Lust in its best form. But as I sit here with poppers and porn and indulge with my toy I look back and also to the future. After all, I am in a male body albeit I have small boobs and a feminine butt. But this sort of thing is wrong and sinful. It is time to weigh the two sides.
I picture it as I stand before Jesus and he takes me to a place of milk and honey and I serve him loyally. Everyone is a brother and sister which means, no touching. I am now in my mind as I stand there as I am scolded for having breasts and lust. We do not indulge in alcohol, drugs, or sex here. I then hear a soft voice call to me and turn. It is a beautiful redhead with huge breasts and barely dressed.
Next to her is the most beautiful angel and I know it is he, Lucifer.
“There is someone who wants to meet you. They want to show you how good it can be. You only have to let go,” she says, “Would you like to indulge with me and feel things from my side?”
It’s then that I realize that this is Lilith.
“If I let you in me will you let me in you,” Lilith says, “So I can show you lust like you never knew?”
I take their hands as I picture myself. I am there in my feminine lingerie and slightly buzzed. They tell me they will show me a new way. As we enter this darkness I see a figure standing there. He is as we picture with the tail and all. He calls for us and tells me to breathe in his air. The place smells like poppers. I breathe in the wild sensation. I am offered a drink and they pass around a joint.
“Here,” he tells me, “It’s good to indulge.”
Then Lilith offers herself as long as I agree to give myself. I lay down as Lilith is never on the bottom and she rides me. She leans as I suck milk from her breasts and uses her vaginal muscles to milk me. I cannot hold it as I explode inside her. But as I do I feel different
“Enjoy the freedom,” Lilith says.
I am no longer restrained by gender as she slides down to kiss my small breasts and kisses me.
“Here I come,” she whispers and vanishes inside me.
I start to feel a lust like never before. I get to my knees as Satan and Lucifer stand in front of me. I see both cocks almost staring at me and one is human while the other is like I pictured. It is thick with ribs and bumps, the head slightly pointed, and both have a slight bit of precum.
“Go ahead! Taste and indulge,” they say.
I lick both and the taste is like something I cannot describe.
They take my hand.
“We know you have been curious,” I felt Lilith whisper in my mind, “But you have been too afraid of doing the wrong thing.”
I am still insure. We come to an altar. Upon the altar is a weird-shaped bong on a hot plate. Something is bubbling inside it. It has three stems, like hoses that come from it and the two take a hit and hold it. Then they blow this big cloud in my face and I know what it is.
“You are not a slave here,” Satan then tells me.
He does not tell me what to do. Instead, he encourages me to do what I want to do. I can feel the spirit of Lilith draw me to it.
“We are going to feel things like we cannot at that other place,” he tells me.
I find myself looking down at their erect cocks.
“This will make it all feel good,” she said.
I take a hit and try to hold it but gag and blow it out, what a huge cloud. They tell me not to go so hard this time as we do it together.
We blow out these big clouds and now my head is literally in the clouds. The room is now like a psychedelic movie and it is wild but now I am feeling her lust grow. I find myself in the middle of the room with Lucifer standing before me.
“What are your thoughts? Lucifer asks, “Do you want to kiss me?”
So we do. I feel his lips as our tongues wrestle and I am like a lust demon. me.
“Does it feel good?” I hear a whisper behind ask.
I feel a warm arm wrap around my body and massage my breasts. I feel his warm huge cock between my cheeks
“Here.” The voices say, “You can do anything you want.”
I feel Lucifer pull me close as his huge cock presses against my small one as we grind and rub while at the same time, I am grinding against Satan’s cock. I hear him ask if we are ready in reference not only to my two sides but my queen inside me. My head nods slightly as I kiss and I feel his head push up into me. I moan as it stretches my hole. He kisses my neck and I am sandwiched between them. I feel it slowly go deeper as I open up and get hornier.
He goes until he hits bottom or that second doorway and stops.
“Are you ready?” They ask, “Ready to go all the way!”
He pulls out and Lucifer pulls away as I stand there and contemplate. They tell me it is my call. I hold out my hands and they take them and guide me down these steps to a lower room. It is ironic as they tell me to count as we descend almost like a hypnosis file. We get to the bottom and they ask how I feel and with no answer, they get the answer.
There it is, this small room with candles and another bong. I am told this time to get naked. They call me to the bong and near it on the floor is this big round bed. Almost as if connected to the underworld, what an imagination. I am told it is my call but I have someone inside who will help if needed. I put my lips around the stem and they do the same and we hit it. I start to wobble as we blow out the clouds and my hand is taken and guided to the center of the soft round mattress.
To the center of a pentagram. Lucifer holds my hand as Satan lays with his cock standing straight up. I get into a reverse cowgirl position and lower onto it as I face Lucifer. He holds my head as he gets close and I open my mouth. I close my eyes and let the drugs take me away as I begin to ride one while the other fucks my face. Is this even possible? Then after a bit, I pause and slide down and feel my doorway open and Satan has entered it as Lucifer pulls from my mouth.
I look up with my mouth open almost in a daze as I feel the heat enter me from inside and at the same time Lucifer shoots in my mouth and on my face as he leans me back on Satan, pressing his cock on my chest as if between big breasts. Then another load on them as I am filled again. I lay back almost limp as he then goes down on me. He begins to suck me as I feel him pushing to try and get fingers inside my hole.
I am oozing as he finds a way to slide fingers into me while still having Satan in me and he starts to work his fingers and finds that spot. I moan and quiver. I grab his head and push forward he hits my spot and I explode. At this point I let her take over inside and surrender. We slide from Satan as Lucifer now lays. My hole now gaped and oozing. Yet I still want more. I am no longer worried about who or what I am, as much as enjoying and indulging.
I sit on Lucifer’s cock. His semen spits from my hole and acts like lube. I slide down and ride for a couple of minutes as we allow him inside that doorway. I am now overfilled as with each push semen squirts from my hole. I then feel Satan on my back as he tells me it is time to fully give in. I am pulled forward by Lucifer who kisses me as I feel the pointed head against my hole. But I am already filled and yet I feel him push and my hole spreads and takes him as well.
I whimper and moan as am being taken by both at once but have no control as gave that to Lilith inside me. Next thing I know I am being double fucked and filled by both at once. They pull out and semen comes squirting from my hole as I drop limp. The next thing I know I feel empty as Lilith now stands above me.
“Is out what you hoped for?” She asked, “Don’t worry. You can be what you want to be. You don’t have to follow what the world wants of you. Now rest. Later, you may go out and indulge again. I will be with you whenever you call.”
THE END