Writer: Destiny1961
Subject: Blasphemy?
Link: Email LS666 / 13.03,2022
Blasphemy?
It is like I have blasphemed by doing certain things or changing what God gave me. The beginning of this is how scripture talks about wasting the seed and with me it was more like removing it by getting a vasectomy.
That was kind of when I felt I got rid of being a man, and whats left, becoming a woman sexually. So this one threw me for a loop, not that haven’t had thoughts before but this kind of made it like a reason.
I have been feeling less of a man for years but never understood. I know we hear from all sides and God tells us that the devil is a liar, but was it him and was he lying about what I did. Did I not start taking hormones,though light ones. Did I not have thoughts about transgenderism. Have I not looked into demons who are such, like Baphomet and seen articles that say Astaroth is a gender bender, or some even say Lilith is a hermaphrodite.
I have watched tranny porn and regular porn and demonic as well. But one thing is always on my mind as I watch assholes and cunts being stretched and penetrated by big cocks and filled. I have done half-assed rituals due to not having a place or privacy to do them great, and yet have gotten through. I have even made a half-assed attempt to offer my body and soul.
They say dreams have meaning and in the end times it is said children will dream and visions will be seen,or something like that. I have used my mirror to try and kind of scry or even use it as a doorway, and have even seen myself differently. So I lay down and kind of fall into some sort of sleep or trance as I am even more confused then usual.
I have reached out to Astaroth and Baphomet for the duality and as usual, my subconscious and alter ego emerges. It keeps telling me about verses where it says Satan or his angles can take different forms or even shape shift. I start to fall deep as I can picture asking Satan to help with my breasts and ass and make it more feminine. I am now, for all intense purposes out of it.
I wake up, or seems like am awake or in another state of woke. I have poppers next to me, nothing unusual there. But there is a bottle of pills and a bong there. Okay so where am I as it looks like my room. I look to the doorway leading into my bathroom, where I do my rituals and summonings. I see what looks like moving shadows. So I feel called and get up and go in. I have talked to someone who says he has a shack in the Bayou and it has been on my mind as he relates as a werewolf and wants to change me there.
So as I go into the bathroom and go through the door I am in some sort of shack. It looks like something from a horror movie. The floorboards a wreck, dirt coming through some,but the walls have cracked mirrors like some sort of demonic whorehouse. I feel a presence calling me in and my feminine subconscious spirit getting hot and horny. I feel something behind me and like the wind my clothes are ripped off me.
I feel its breath on my neck as he tells me to come inside. I feel heat from his body as if standing next to a fire and move inside. I am told to look at him and turn to see Satan standing there. His cock long and thick hanging between his legs. His head looks semi pointed and he looks me in the eyes and I drop to my knees. He closes the door and lights candles. He says something in tongues and my body shakes as my spirit understands. He lifts me and pulls me close and kisses me as his snake like tongue goes down my throat. He then hands me a drink and it tastes nasty but I become drunk.
He tells me it is time to worship my true god as he remakes me into the woman I have wanted to be. He can hear my thoughts and knows I am wondering as he tells me I have given up my manhood years ago and decided to be female,but a special one. He tells me I decided to destroy what the god from above made in order to be new. Then he tells me it is time to be new, he recites about the old going away a d becoming a new creation. I am laid on the floor in the middle of candles.
I am next to a hole in the floor filled with dirt as he does not need to summon anyone as he is Satan himself. He reminds me years ago I made a promise and its time for that. Then he tells me I have been trying to rebuild my body as a sign of leaving my old faith. He then tells how God made man from dirt but we are nothing but mud. He pisses into the dirt and makes mud as he tells me he will finish what I started and he plops two big things on my chest and forms mud tits and as it hardens it is like it is attaching itself.
He forms two big nipples and then takes candles and pours on them two symbols. The brimstone and one I do not know. He tells me not to worry as they will be great. Then on my belly he pours and makes a pentagram. He then spreads my cheeks and garbs a handful and shove it between them til it goes up my ass. I feel the gooey glob inside me as he grabs another handful.
At this point I cannot move and he tells me he will make me the pretty slut I always wanted to look like and he plops it on my face, covering it and my whole head. He rubs it in my hair and lets it set up. I am in some sort of animated state as he cracks the mold. I look down and the mud on my chest has become breasts. I lay and wonder again and he tells me they are real and not to question his power as he lifts me up. He has me look in the cracked mirror to show me them as he reaches around and squeezes them, causing them to spray mommy milk.
Again I wonder as he tells me I need to be able to feed his children. He tell me I gave up being a man long ago when I had a vasectomy which cause me to not be able to use the seed I was given which was against HIS word. Then he has me notice my face has changed to a female version of me, but a slutty one. It is evil as he tells me I am now beautifully demonic.
Then I still question about my parts as he tells me he will take care of that as well a d he licks a long fingernail and runs it over my nipples before sliding it between my legs. Be runs it down my shaft and between my balls as he says how useless they are now and I feel a sharp pain as he uses it like a surgical blade and cuts my sac between my balls. He tells me I will feel pressure as he reaches inside the sac and pulls out my testicles. He tells me I wont need them anymore and hold them up as the burst into flames and turn into ashes.
He takes the loose flesh and pushes it up inside me as I feel the pressure inside me. He has formed what seems to be a small vagina. As he finishes with fingers inside me the feel has me orgasm from the new hole to a point I spray and it runs down my legs, soaking them. I see this all happen through the cracked mirror as if it is not me. He slides his fingers out and has me taste it and asks how I taste it has a strange taste that is like a drug. He tells me it is what I had wished and asked for.
He pushes my thighs together as he has me look in the mirror and asks if this is who I wanted to be. I watch as he kisses my neck and molests my tits and I feel something pressing against my thighs and pushing between them. I look in the mirror below my now erect dick and new hole to see a cock head pop through between my thighs. It is a huge head and again kind of pointed as he slides it back and forth between my thighs as it rubs against my wet hole.
I am about to faint from the immense pleasure and he keeps me up. He the has it where it is against my dick and he takes hold of both and is stroking them. I cannot hold it as he puts his finger over my hole in my head so as I cum it runs down his shaft. I am unsure of what is going on like some sort of mindless bitch. I look in the mirror as I lean over and he spreads my legs like a cop, and using my own cum as lube he pushes into my asshole as I watch in the mirror.
He shoot deep inside me and my body spasms and another orgasm from my new pussy. There seems to be an old dresser there and he tells me he know what I want. He lifts me and sits me on the edge of it where I look down and can see my new hole. He positions his wet sticky cock head at the hole and tells me to see as I watch it enter me. It hurts and yet another spasm and orgasm as he tells me it means I want him deep.
He has me watch as it slides into me deeper and deeper causing orgasm after orgasm as I am ready to pass out. He tells me not to worry as he will take over and lifts me in his arms as I wrap around him and has me in the air. I wrap my legs tight as I know what is about to happen as he pulls me down on his cock as he stands there with me in his arms.
I finally go half limp as he tells me not to worry and starts to move me up and down on his cock like a toy. He walks me over to the circle and lays down with me half sitting on his lap as he bounces me like a horsey. My big tits bouncing as he goes deeper each time. My body spasms and orgasms making me slicker inside as he goes deeper.
Then he pulls out and lays me down and lifts my lower body and slides back into me in a pile-driver position so he can look down on me as he shoves deep.Hd grabs my dick and guides it so I shoot on my tits and face as I feel him fill me. After what seems to be forever and he oozes from my hole he pulls out and lays my limp body in the circle and tells me it is only the beginning.