I am Wendy, female, bi, a follower of the Dark Lord who, by lamplight after meditating in my pentagram, typed this missal, giving birth to what I will call Wendy’s Wanderings, where I “wonder”, gather and “work through my thoughts and ideas … where I have an opportunity to address, share, elucidate and whatever other term I elect to describe, opinions, conclusions, s and feelings concerning me and “who I am” as a follower of the Dark Lord.

Here I can discuss real-life issues, respond to queries and questions, speak to my life living in a Christian “bubble”, and share why and how I became a follower of the Dark Lord, as well as “work out and work through” why I believe the way I do. I have done this before, only to find my past Tumblr posts suddenly disappearing into the ether.

I am learning to live with that, with the hope that with the passage of time or even the discovery of another platform, I can find a place where I can share and speak to issues involving things spiritual, sexual and sensual, frankly, because each of us is sensual and sexual as well as spiritual beings.

I do not use the latter term with the idea that each of us is divine. Rather, I do so because each of us knows that we comprehend the “beyond” though we may not be able to explain it. Each of us is inherently “spiritual” because we always, if we are honest, find ourselves looking beyond ourselves and even those we see around us.

As one online follower wrote in the past: “I can’t escape the fact that the Divine exists. Even if I deny He or She or both, my mind constantly confronts me with, He is.” (Here I chose the masculine, though I see Divinity as above gender). My friend went on to share: “I can, but I can’t deny Him because He is beyond human reason.”

I am Wendy because I can be “windy”, if I wish, pun intended. I often am.

Again, in this space I will speak to issues involving morality as well as sensuality because we are sensual and sexual creations constantly impacted by those senses every minute of every hour of every day. Primary among these, despite protestations to the contrary, are desire and lust, issues common to the human condition. How do we deal with them? How do we react? How do we respond? Individually within ourselves as well as outwardly where our response is witnessed by others?

I do share personal events that occur around me on occasion for any number of reasons, primarily because I can. This isn’t the place for politics, so please avoid attempting to engage me in that arena.

I am what is called “theistic” because I believe there is an actual Presence whom I call the Dark Lord.

Overall, this Tumblr is my journal of sorts where I include my thoughts often after I spend time in my pentagram or similar situation. I am open to questions, etc but wish any and all to know that I am no specially empowered seer or sorceress, etc. What one sees and reads herein are my thoughts, my reasoning about why I believe as I do.

I am open-minded, admittedly selectively promiscuous if I wish to be and honest in my responses if I elect to respond. I use illustrations with my writings and, upfront, share that this Tumblr is adults only, over eighteen, Mature, Sexually themed at times and NSFW. Whatever other labels and designations are necessary, I will use them when I discover them. I smile because in an effort to enjoy engaging in free expression, we often find the limitations are nebulous and inconclusive. I sum up my description of my site as “adult” and “mature”, etc., with the phrase “ like a well, the topics are deep”.

I will respond to questions about how I interact with and follow the Dark Lord and how I came to discover Him. I will attempt to keep my articles brief and realize that often a topic can involve numerous approaches, thus its own article. My language is what I wish to use, and I am frequently blunt. This isn’t an exercise in creative writing. Well, it is in a way. It’s more me expressing myself.

Wendy’s Wondering & Wandering is my personal secret space and will remain that for me and those who indulge in reading it and interacting with me. Here, in this space, I am what I describe as “my real me”.

My reason for this effort, such as it is, may be expressed in three words — Think about it — Ave Obscurum Dominum