As those of you who get my newsletter know, last week I released a new blasphemy video titled Varieties of Blasphemy to my clip sites. The original version of the video is titled Bible Burning & Other Blasphemies. In this video I go over different kinds of blasphemy a person can perform, including Bible burning. When I posted the full version to my clip sites for sale, the video was repeatedly removed without explanation, and when I asked why, I was told the content was “too inflammatory”. In order to sell the video through their platforms, I had to censor out the parts where I burned pages from the Bible. This was extremely frustrating to me, not only because I had put time and effort into making this video, but that in my opinion, it wasn’t the most “inflammatory” of content I’d even made. But, in their eyes, I had crossed the line. I thought about all of the books that Christians have burnt over the years, so many of the books I’ve loved and cherished, and the thought of having to not burn a Bible because seeing it happen might “inflame” them fed my frustration. I had to release the full version somehow, so I’ve done it independently.

Since releasing the video and allowing people to purchase the full uncensored version of the video through me independently, many responses I’ve received after someone views it is “it wasn’t that extreme”. And you’re right, it’s not, at least not in my opinion. But for the clip sites, it was. Blasphemy content itself is extreme for many people and that’s a major draw to it. Because it breaks taboos, because you’re doing something you’ve been told you’re not supposed to, because (if you believe in the things we’re blaspheming against) you’re tempting fate and the possible eternal damnation of your soul by saying and doing these things–you’re risking something. Many of these ideas are also a part of other taboo fantasies that are very popular on porn sites from incest fantasies, to executrix scenarios, to age play, to rape fantasies, and on and on.

I recently had an email conversation with someone about how it seems like we become desensitized to porn and have to seek more extreme scenarios in order to get off. From my experience this is definitely one way people interact with their sexuality. If you’re searching for something taboo to reach your peak, eventually repeated exposure will make what you first thought of as taboo seem more normal and thus the novelty of it fades, so you look for something new that has the same effect. But other people are all at different points in this process. Someone who has just stumbled upon blasphemy porn might feel like it’s extreme to utter the words “fuck God” to themselves while the jerk off and might balk at the sight of the Bible burning in front of them. If you’re further down the path, this might not do anything for you. And that’s okay. This is one of the reasons why I make content at all different levels of “extremity”, because what does it for one person might not for another. So, I’m asking that when you respond to my videos and give me feedback, that you keep this in mind. I’m working against censorship, at many different levels for different people, and still trying to push my own limits in the process…not just in blasphemy porn but in all the different taboos I work with.

As always, I’d love to hear your thoughts on this. Let’s have a conversation down below in the comments or send me an email to discuss through the “contact me” link above. What I’ve written here is just a snapshot of my complex feelings about a complex topic.