Writer: Destiny1961
Subject: My Dark Destiny
Link: Email LS666 / 01.05.2022
My Dark Destiny
I been having one in my head as to whether it be real or just a dream or vision could depend on others. I call it, “My Dark Destiny,” as a play on my screen name. It has been a wild ride and about to get wilder. Ever since young and being told what was right and wrong and who I should be something inside has wanted to rebel. I remember the talks about good and bad and sin. I remember the night my cousin took my virginity, from a male point of view. But it was so much more then just getting off.
I remember us both being in the beginning of our teens and her asking me to, “Do it” with her. I can picture her sitting on my small penis and riding it; and the look of pleasure on her face; and then when I shot inside her. I remember her small tits bouncing; and felt she was having more fun then me. This was incest and sin, but she liked it, and used me a bit more after.
Then I remembered that first time I thought about it as I laid down with a male friend; and he took my ass like I was a girl. It hurt but something inside felt good. The same thing happened the first time I sucked a guy; and the taste when I swallowed his cum, oh my.
I am older now and have had my share of doing things like smoking weed and drinking and found that while my penis was small I liked to use my mouth, but on both man and women. I actually liked the thought of being both as well, sort of a hybrid. I knew I had a submissive side as well when I had a friend who had a need one night and I offered to help. Then there is the fact I have feminine attributes as well and have even used hormones to try and grow tits. I could imagine a guy sucking them as women liked it when I did. The thought of cum on them. But again this is wrong, at least as the church is concerned. Maybe I need a new church I thought.
I started to read up on some dark stuff like black magick and stuff and started to feel things. My chest started to grow and butt as well, I started to buy sex toys and use them like a girl. I found I looked good in women’s clothing as well. I kept it hidden and found as friends and I got high or drunk we would use prostitutes to get head and maybe more, but I liked the girls who were goth or dark for some reason. I remember one night, go figure, a full moon on Friday the 13th. We got high and drunk and my friends were about to fuck with me. They knew this goth girl they said was a witch and whore and was special. I was so high they told me if I go down on her she would change me.
They dropped me off at her place and we drank and got even more high as I brought up the goth and how it related to the dark. I found myself admitting to her about the hormones and other stuff. I asked her about the whole, “Whore,” thing and she said she was not a whore — but a prostitute — I asked what was the difference. She said she got paid to fuck and suck. She said it was a way she could do things and make money and such and could even feel power from it. She told me she felt, “We maybe alike.”
She then said she was paid for and felt I needed in what she had. We went into her bed and she got naked down the bra, panties and stockings. She looked like a succubus. I even made mention of it; and said sorry but she thanked me for saying it. She told me the, “Four,” would be proud. I did not know who they were but I was getting hard as she took my clothes off and laid me on the bed.
She sucked, but only a short bit, as she slid on top and asked what I thought about sodomy. She giggled as she took me in her ass and put her hands on what were my small breasts. “We are alike,” she said again, as she massaged them and rode me. She told me I could be so much more as she bounced. She leaned forward, so I could suck her tits, as she rode me — until it built up and it was like she felt it — as she moaned. She sat up and leaned back as I shot and saw her quiver, but like she felt something from me.
She said there was suck power as I noticed why my friends said she was special, as she now had a bulge in her panties. She noticed and asked if I wanted it, as she pulled it from her panties and plopped it on my belly. I could feel something from her taking my cum. She slid up and between my little tits as she rubbed it between them til I saw the precum. She told me I could feel it too if I wanted but once I tasted the seed it was over. She slid up closer as my tongue hung out and licked the sticky tip.
I heard her call some names and tell them she had a new one for them as she slid above my face and down into my mouth. It was almost like she was controlling me as she took my face. Before I knew it I was tasting her and then she slid out as I swallowed it. I felt something as she knew it and as we finished she told me I could feel that and more. She asked my thoughts on succubi. But as I thought she would tell me, “They are real,” she said, “We are real,” and the, “Queens,” wanted me. Finally she explained who the, “Queens,” were.
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I stayed the night as had no way home. As we sat there she started to tell me about her, “Queens,” … Lilith, Na’amah, Agrat Bat Mahlat and one named Eisheth Zenunim. They are the, “Queens,” of prostitution and demons and succubi.
She called upon them as she opened my mind up to them and told me it was them who liberated her. She then offered me drink and weed to open my mind up. She went against what most say is that they are born in the wrong body, as she explained it wasn’t who they think they are but who they want to be as they know its better on the other side. I thought about how she let me taste her and I started to wonder about being like her. I started to see shadows as she told me the, “Queens,” are there and interested in me. She told me to take a journey with her.
I knelt there as she put her hands on my head and I saw the shadows around me as I started to get horny, but in that way when was with men years ago. I then felt as if I was drawn inside her as she had me experience a memory as her. There she was as we were at a party with me inside her. We were getting high and drunk with a group of men. They were dark, gothic and demonic.
Before I knew it they were sucking our tits and kissing us and then feeding us their cocks. With each touch of lips on our body I got chills like extra energy. I felt someone go down on us and as he sucked our shecock more energy, and then shoved fingers up our ass and more energy. It was like we were getting stronger spiritually. Before I knew it there was a guy laying in front of us as if in a trance.
As the others watched, we bent over and sucked him until he came and I felt the chills again like never before. Then as I did not expect she lifted his legs and we shoved into him. We leaned over so he could suck our tits as another man walked up and fed us his cock. More chills and then from behind. As we fucked one guy another shoved into our ass. Then, as if talking to her from the inside, I heard her spirit tell me to feel the best part. I then felt what seemed to be all the, “Queens,” enter our spirit.
Then she was shoving into one man’s ass and then back against the other’s cock as she shoved the third down our throats. Then I felt it build as we were ready to explode and felt the others too. Then I got a charge as we orgasmed and the others filled both holes.
But more to come as they started to go limp inside us and she told me to enjoy as I tasted that sharp taste of piss. Usually it would disgust me but it was different. But what really got me was that instead of being worn out or drained after I felt power and a need for more. It was next man, or men up. We went for a few hours and when finished she allowed me to feel the power.
Then I came back to realize it was a vision. She then had me sit with her and a Ouija board as we talked to the, “Queens.” I told her I was nervous about the board and things they say can happen from it. She told me we were safe and after communication it was time to finally sleep. The next day she dropped me off but told my friends she took it easy on me and as she was leaving I told her I wish I was like her. She told me to call on the, “Queens,” but be careful of wishes.
I found myself starting to feel the feminine urges and my male ego starting to fade and wanting to suck dick and get fucked and feel the energy. I had found myself making a make shift alter and trying to communicate with the, “Queens,” when I swore I felt one of them reaching through. I started to research about the one named Eisheth and found what I would say is her calling card, her demonic enn and sigil. I search sites and was warned she would take me as her own and even take my soul. She was the, Queen of Prostitution,” and other things.
I sat one night during a full moon and felt something. I set up my alter in my room and did a small ritual and felt nothing. I found myself searching porn which led to succubus porn. I watched videos of succubi having sex and steal energy from guys, but they were so beautiful. I laid down and had a strong drink and started to play with myself. I said I would take the chance just to have a succubus fuck me, and then said I wished I could be more like that goth and not only feel the power but be able to just have lots of sex. I remembered her giving me some incense and some weed and a special bong.
So I had these thoughts and put on this open breast bra that lifted my small tits and an open ass pair of panties. I even put on some dark goth type make up and looked like a goth slut. It was even more wild as I lit the incense and candles. Then I took hits from the bong and between it all the room got cloudy. I was lit and laid down and swore I saw something.
There she stood, a woman with horns, three pair and beautiful black long hair. Her body was to die for, literally. She was dressed in black with part of her breasts out. She grabbed me by my erect dick as she told me I am going where I may never return. Her other hand cupped my balls and a finger went up my ass while her mouth never moved she spoke to me.
She looked me in the eyes. It was almost hypnotizing, as she told me, that if she took me, that I would belong to her and her sisters. Then, if she did sex would be better then ever, but the need is overwhelming and she explained it is why most prostitutes must get or stay high in order to keep going.
I lay there stunned almost paralyzed as she told me that the energy I take will belong to her as well. She told me my soul will be hers as I started to realize she was stroking me as she was fingering me. She licked precum from my head as it tingled me and then with a snake-like tongue licked up my body til she was licking my nipples. This was it, I was gonna fuck a succubus and did not care if she took my soul as what I felt so far was better then anything I ever felt and she read my mind. She said it was because it was no longer as a male and I realized the female horniness.
I lay there as her tongue licked my chest — and then it seemed to go into my chest — I felt something as she told me it begins now. Her tongue seemed to glow and it looked like she was using it like a straw and sucking something from me. I then started to just feel this strong lust as she positioned me and sat on my dick.
It was weird as it was like her pussy was sucking me and I was actually getting larger and more endowed as she told me she had to change some things. She cupped my breasts and they grew slightly as well, also with some pain. She pounded against my cock until she milked it. I felt two things, for one was feeling drained and yet some sort of energy, lustful energy. Then she slid me out of her pussy and in her ass and drained more. I saw her glow as she took power from me.
I lay there as the room got smokier and smelled like sex. I then saw what seemed to be others there. They got close and called her sister and said to finish it as they had work for me as the demons needed something new. She slid up my body and sat on my face and had me eat my seed from her pussy and ass as it was something else there.
I felt her clit growing inside my mouth as it became a shecock. Then I tasted her piss as she had me swallow it. She fucked my face. She then slid out of my mouth and told me it was time as she slid from my body. I felt more lust then ever. She then slid into the bed and held up her cock and had me sit on it. I was like a robot being guided. Before I knew it I was riding her and she grabbed my waist. She rolled me from her and got on top and shoved inside me and I felt what seemed to be a pop as she went deep. She kissed me and told me I was now a sister of prostitution and shot inside me. She gave me the power of lust. She told me this is my new destiny as I lay there.
I watched as the sisters talked and then more shadows entered the room, this time of demons as the sister told them to enjoy. I felt weird and slightly scared but horny as, shall I say, Hell.