Writer: Destiny1961
Subject: Dark Journey 2
Link: Email to LS666 / 28.11.2021
Dark Journey 2
So I have gone through the hypnosis and into sites to find more like me. I found a site and then became friends with another dark person. I decided, or she did for me, to get into black magic in order to get closer and make changes, though unsure what changes.
Through the site I met two people who were into it and one wanted to make me her apprentice as she was a demonic transvestite and other a man of Satan who both gave me rituals to perform. I did the one from the TV, which consisted of using an sigil and calling a demon, only to realize after that the sigil was hers and she wanted me to give my soul to her.
The second gave me a ritual in front of a mirror and call the same demon and so it was. I found myself starting to go deeper and darker in my hypnosis and approach to become some sort of sissy succubus.
The man had me call on and use the name of the Goddess Adrestia. I started to research her after I started to use her name and feel her presence. It called her the one you cannot escape, but then the Goddess of the hunt and revenge as well. I thought about the hunt and giggled as felt she hunted me and got her prey.
Later I would read she was the Goddess of divine retribution, revolt and the big one is inevitable fate. Well guess am revolting against normal things by wanting to become feminine and a sex object, or is it still Destiny inside.
My mind is broken into parts and am unsure what is happening. I went on but then it was time to become a normal male husband and get back to the bible. I moved into the bible belt and felt the presence of Jesus, but there was that other one as well. I went back to trying to find demons and then back to the bible as I went in circles. Like years earlier I called to the spirits to open the door to their world and someone to guide me.
I was warned not to call on Satan himself as I started to do little rituals to try and bring out demons to help me. But one day as I was chanting enns to a few and then called for my shadow self to come out I found her chanting the enn to Satan. I had previously took the name Destiny back and got rid of the name Adrestia. Now Destiny is calling Satan himself and I am feeling things.It has been a while and I am now back in the bible and trying to make sense of things.
I have decided to get rid of my toys and poppers and bad things and go straight and the fight begins. I am now sitting and looking at videos when she comes out but its like she has company. I know my big toy will not fit into me but the other can, but wait. I was going to get rid of them and the poppers but I now realize the poppers are in my hand and I am using them looking at truly demonic hypnosis videos. I am going to quench this once and for all the next day as I call out the demons and Satan to make a point.
It is morning and the wife is going to work early, which leaves plenty of dark time so I grab the big toy and close of the bathroom where I do my rituals due to the mirrors. I bring the poppers as well and am going to show them who is boss. I close off the doors and am standing there feeling a weird presence inside and call it to take over, but is it Destiny or not.I find myself halfway in a trance and my dildo is stuck to my top of my shelf in front of my mirror by its suction cup and in front of a candle wax warmer I use. It makes a glow like you would see at a campfire when a person uses a flashlight to tell a story. I find what is inside calling to the usual as I call on Lucifer and Lilith as her parents and then I am calling Satan. I look up to realize I have on a g-string,stockings and a bra. I feel a presence telling me I am going to give myself to it.
I look down at the toy as it kind of glimmers and grab the poppers and take a sniff. The toy now representing the phallus of Satan. I look in the mirror to see my face fade as usual. I then feel whats inside guiding me as I try to tell it that the toy does not fit. I find myself telling the demons if they want it to the they will have to open my hole for it. I find myself leaning over and kissing the huge head and sticking it in my mouth,but not sucking, more like making love to it and saying I love it.
I stand back up and pull it from the top of the shelf as it is about a good 4ft tall and in the mirror I see my sink behind me. That top is shorter, though it wont work as would have to be on my toes for me to benin position. I then find myself taking more poppers as I take off the bra and rub the phallus against my nipples and between my tiny tits.I droll on them like a little slut and it is like I am there but inside myself watching someone else take over. I turn to face the sink and other mirror and walk to it. I stick the phallus onto it and the grab my bottle of body wash and pour a little just on the head as I start to realize what is happening.
I turn and go back to the mirror and as I stare into it I tell them it will not fit unless they make it fit and as I am saying this am taking another hit and pulling off my panties. I feel the shakes as I do many times when something may be in the room as my face fades again and find myself being guided backwards toward the phallus. But it is no longer me ,but we. We bend over and slide it between our cheeks and slide up and down like getting an assjob. I look across in the mirror and it looks like my tits have grown as if it is the demon or spirit inside me as I start to get on my toes.
I get into position, as again, I chant the Satan enn and then simple, “Ave Satanas,” over and over as I begin to sit on the head. I am now this horny entity who is impatient as I want it in me. I slide down and then back up as I try to get it into me and am feeling something but not sure. After a few minutes I believe the head is finally in me and I reach around to feel and see. I feel the thick shaft as I slide up and up to realize it is about four inches in me not counting the head. But it did not hurt or feel the extreme pressure as it feels like it may be part of me. Divine retribution, inevitable fate. divine intervention?
I look and the figure in the mirror is not familiar as I slide up and down taking only as much as given. I slide out but then turn to face the phallus and lean and kiss it and take it in my mouth, even though did not clean out before and I taste myself. I go back to the other mirror as I reach around and slide fingers into the hole and the voice inside and around says this is not over yet. But what does that mean as I seemed to take a new step, and there is a new presence, or is it an old one coming back.
It has been about a week and still have not kind of recovered or know what am doing as have been back in the bible looking at verses that I seem to be bending again. I had recently been guided to some dark hypnosis, including one called, “No longer a human being,” which asks the question am I but a sexual toy made to take cock and cum.
I have asked many times for God to heal my body and change it as have a belly and cannot see due to cateracts. Then hear the voices telling me they can help. I am sitting in my bed again before daylight and ask for help when she comes through again.
I hear, “You are mine and we are his, surrender and accept it.”
I am now falling again, but is it a true trance or what. I get the room prepared and then get naked and am standing in front of the mirror. I am guided to call on Marbas as it is said he can change the shape of man. I ask him to feminine my parts and this time find we are specific. Tits that are feminine and between forty-eight and fifty inches and a butt and hips around sixty inches. I then call on Lilith to fill me with the spirit of all things, jezebel. I ask for my spirit or demon guide to help or whatever is inside to do what is needed to make this real.
I take a hit and then another of poppers and this time the face changes in the mirror a few times. I cannot describe them as some may be male, female or something in between. I step back to the center of the room and lift my arms and bow my head as my body starts to quiver. There is someone taking control and asking for permission to do what is needed. I take more poppers to relax and give in and then feel a chill as we start to chant the Satan enn over and over.
“Tasa Reme Laris Satan Ave Satanas.”
But though am hesitant cannot do anything as gave control. Then I lift my head and almost feel like what is inside is laughing at me as I call for Satan and to feel his presence. I know think about the word revenge fro Adrestia as out of my mouth I am asking if Satan wants this body as his vessel. I do not know what to do as cannot stop this. We take a big hit and as our mind and body start to get fuzzy.
We say we surrender to him and give our mind and body. We ask that he make us his feminine or gay or fag sexual toy. I think back to the video of no longer human as now my own voice tells Satan I give him my soul. I stand there and feel a chill as the only thing I am feeling is lust. But I swear at some point this presence, or entity ,or essence inside asked to be in control in order for us to surrender.
It has been a bit and have read through sites that being high can effect the rituals as should be sane and sober as respect for the demons and Satan himself. I have felt like my body ,mind and soul are in a sort of limbo right now between light and dark, and the only thing I have felt is pure lust and need penetration amd semen. She is calling for me to do one more ritual I can almost picture in a dark vision, it is two part.
The second of coarse would be a sexual ritual with a man to finish, but she is calling me back into the room and to set it up like before. But the poppers would be on the side to help with the end if Satan says so.It calls for me to let go as I have a hard time,.which is why I use the poppers, but once I do to allow her to take over yet again and this time I give myself fully and end it by sitting on the phallus as a sign of complete surrender.
She tells me with that act Satan will give her some control of me and as I love semen she will be able to remove doubts and fears and help me get what is needed. But I am still in limbo, do I allow her to take over? Is he truly calling me into his service? Where is that man who is going to be the final step in taking me there … maybe a transexual?