Writers: Shane and XP
Subject: Crazy Thoughts
Link: Email / 07.01.2021
Crazy thoughts
This is a letter I received today from Shane entitled “CRAZY THOUGHTS” — wanted to share it with you all — and my response …
LETTER FROM SHANE / 07.01.2021 / VIA EMAIL
Hello, I recently came across some of your stories or at least I think they are stories. As a Catholic I found them shocking but exciting and hypnotic drawing me back.
Of late I think they have impacted on my sleep and dreams? I seem to dream a lot about fucking my wife. However every time we are about to cum I disappear out of the room and suddenly Satan begins to molest my wife. He penetrates her deep and hard, but all the time my wife, Jen, thinks it is me. You can see her hips dragging his cock deeper and deeper inside. Her whole body is responding to every thrust. The sheer pleasure in her face is undeniable. Her breathing, moaning and groaning is enough to make me cum.
My wife suddenly opens her eyes to see it isn’t me fucking her and she begs for Satan to stop — which he does — my wife calls out my name and I appear at the foot of the bed. Jen asks me, “is this what you want?”
Satan asks her what do you want Jen? My wife turns to him and says, “You know what I want”. To which Satan says, “But you must ask for it I must hear you say it.” Jen asks Satan, “Fuck me.” With that, Satan pushes Jen over, onto her knees, so that we are face-to-face.
From behind, Satan starts to penetrate her. I could see on her face expressions of pain. Jen turns to Satan and says, “No not in my ass not my ass.” But with those words Satan just thrusts deeper inside my wife’s ass. He then began to withdraw slowly and then thrust deep inside her ass — at first it was clear that Jen didn’t want this — But with each thrust, that got harder and harder, her body started to respond. It became obvious that Jen was swimming in a sea of Satanic lust.
Then suddenly Satan stops fucking her. He asks Jen, “What do you want?” Jen answers, “Fuck me Satan.” He then said, “Where Jen? Where do you want me to fuck you?” To which Jen begs, “In my ass, please Lord!”
Now you see the impact on my dreams?
When we are having sex, I imagine it is Satan. As I thrust inside her pussy I say, “Hail Satan.” I leave my finger rimming her ass; and ask Satan to guide Jen’s ass onto my finger — which has happened a few times — which shocks me.
Anyway as I said I am a Catholic and want to stop these thoughts and feelings from entering my head. As I believe it was some of your material that opens the door, I am wondering how to close it? Should I speak to a priest? By the way my name in Shane. Thanks.
RESPONSE FROM XP / 07.01.2021 / VIA EMAIL
Hail Shane
Well, firstly thank you for reaching out. Your dream about your love play with your wife and Satan’s intervention is certainly very interesting. It is also very specific in its nature and focused on what you believe your wife would enjoy.
You say that you have recently come across my stories — and the inference is that these blasphemous and sexually perverted stories of evil have somehow influenced your dreams in a way that you feel a sense of shame or regret — though you also say, that, “Her breathing, moaning and groaning is enough to make me cum.” — which indicated to me a sense of sexual pleasure garnished from this whole process.
I think you need a moment of introspection. Speaking to a priest is one solution. However, what you are denying there is your enjoyment of the saga so far … and you have so much more to explore. Ask yourself — do you really want to STOP these thoughts and feelings from entering your head?
If the answer is truly YES, then I would suggest that you stop reading satanic porn material and stick to scriptures.
If the answer is that you are not sure or that you’d like to see what is on the other side — then I would suggest to forget about the guilt that your faith has forced upon you and start to live your life the way you want. If you want to fuck your wife in the ass — do it. I was once a Christian and worshiped the empty God too. Don’t ask permission from her or seek absolution for wayward thoughts (or dreams) after reading one of my depraved stories.
Life is too short. Know that there is no heaven or hell. Only NOW. Go praise the Devil for his wonderful gifts of sin and sex — masturbate frequently to depraved satanic porn — use your creative energy to enjoy your cock — and take it to the next level. HAIL SATAN
EMAIL FROM SHANE / 07.01.2021 / VIA EMAIL
Thanks for responding I actually never though you would probably why I felt safe to send them message. But then on the flip side I wanted you to respond and when I got the email notification my whole body went weak — such the rush of sexual energy — all very confusing huge guilt attached do not know what to think or feel. Though a few of your comments excite me:
“… However, what you are denying there is your enjoyment of the saga so far … and you have so much more to explore … use your creative energy to enjoy your cock — and take it to the next level …”
What would you suggest I do?
RESPONSE FROM XP / 08.01.2021 / VIA EMAIL
Thank you for responding. I am not surprised at your reply and it is a reaction that seems to be quite frequent from Christian brothers; who is caught in a web of deceit; who has been sold the stories that God is benevolent; that if you sin, your rewards in heaven will be forfeit; and that there are demons lurking around every corner — just waiting for an opportunity to “steal” your soul …
Sorry to be the messenger, but all this is a lie. However, there is an upside to this. As I discovered some time ago. The “rush of sexual energy” you feel is a sign that you are on the right path. Nurture this brother. Cherish the feeling that you feel between your legs … let your cock lead you …
You ask me, “What would you suggest I do?” — but you know intuitively what you want — what you’ve always wanted, but always denied yourself. Self-gratification. Self-pleasure. Self-love.
When you read stories about others indulging in sexual sin — fucking girls and boys and even animals; or sucking shemale dick; or sodomizing your sister; or dancing naked before the Baphomet; or offering sacrifice in the Missa Nigra — how do you feel?
You feel that you have “missed out” — and then the guilt follows … “how can I be a good Christian when I think about Satan fucking my wife in the ass?” … yet it does excite you! … it makes you feel more alive than you feel singing those dull hymns of praise for a non-existent “Yahweh” …
What I said was to explore … my journey began when I was only eleven … exploring that which I was explicitly told that I MUST NOT … I was miscreant … and desirous of discovering all that was depraved, taking it further and further … it was truly wonderful, blissful and I have never looked back …
Your path may or may not involve your wife. Can you introduce her to porn … start slowly … the idea is to introduce Satan to your loveplay … maybe wear a “devil” mask and roleplay about sinful things … use your imagination … maybe read her a story that you like? Something a little sordid to gauge her reactions? Are you bisexual? Do you look at shemales? Do you like young ones? Tell me more … I have NO TABOOS
EMAIL FROM SHANE / 08.01.2021 / VIA EMAIL
Hi XP … Again thanks for responding. How weird is this here is a picture I found pretty much my dream. So we have watched porn many years ago. In bed we have role played. I have a fantasy where I watch Jen fucking other men. So we have role played this, Jen calling me a made-up name. 100% was amazing and I know Jen got off on it – unfortunately she would never actualise the fantasy. It is so hot to hear your wife call out another name, as your cock is penetrating her deep and hard. There is no way she could do that whilst keeping eye contact and not be excited by the idea? Or maybe she enjoys pleasing me? I have tried to persuade her, but never get past the marriage vows etc. For me my big lust is to free Jen sexually, and her to fuck a guy as I watch her enjoy herself, looking deep into my eyes, as she willingly rides his cock – that is it, in a nutshell. I would have boundaries that I would not step over, like always consenting adults. In terms of shemales not really something I have ever thought about or pondered. I know typing up my messages has me shaking and my cock is hard and yearning to be milked.
RESPONSE FROM XP / 09.01.2021 / VIA EMAIL
Hail Shane. Thank you for sharing your fantasy and the image. The drawing is one that I have seen many times and the I can understand the lure of the beast taking your beautiful wife and defiling her … while you watch her excited and fervent response to Baphometic cock. You say you’ve watch porn together and even role-played in the past … but I believe that was about your wife, Jen, enjoying adultery with ‘another man’ but you never extended it as far as her offering to having anal sex with Satan, right? If she has sinned in her heart, participating in this, whether to please you or herself … she has sinned before your Christian God, right? You both have … so it’s a small step forward to imagining that instead of a man, it could be that she shares her lust with another woman or even a tranny … that instead of you being passive … you could preside over this ritual of lust performed to summon sex demons to infest you both? Your dream calls upon you to appease a more perverted fantasy, one that is unnatural and more blasphemous. The image you sent me suggests a yearning to worship Satan through sex and through your wife’s “hidden desires” for lust with many partners … both human or demonic? So, revisit the role play – but be more specific – make sure that it involves elements that lead toward blasphemy and demonic worship – the thrill is amazing and the orgasms unforgettable.
EMAIL FROM SHANE / 09.01.2021 / VIA EMAIL
Hi XP
Jen doesn’t know anything about this side of my character not sure she would be warm to it. I have no idea what I should do. Sometimes when we are having sex I get consumed by all sorts of crazy ideas it is almost like I feel Jen feeding off it as she becomes more lustful – but then she goes more into a passion mode as opposed to her true lustful self if that makes sense?
There are times I think about blindfolding her and taking her as far as I can to the edge of sexual freedom and then remove the blindfold to introduce her to a fuck partner. My thinking here is that if she is so hot and full of lust she would willing take the strangers cock. I do think she has the potential just need to find the key.
We have never had anal sex. I have licked and tongue her anus and she really does respond to it. If I eat her pussy to the point where her juices are trickling down her ass she does enjoy me working the juices inside her tight ass. In fact I do hold off fingering her ass and ask Satan to persuade Jen to move her ass onto my finger and push it willing inside her ass. Now this has happened a few times and again Jen moans and responds to it so I have no doubt she enjoys it – but she stops short of anal sex – I wouldn’t know how to progress this any further.
How would I summon sex demons to ravish Jen? Unfortunately she had never admitted to having any bisexual fantasies though I have pushed the idea. Jen simply laughs and says you wish. Never thought about her and a tranny and I have to say that has taken me to another level of excitement. Pretty certain I will just keep this to myself no way Jen would be into it.
In your mind how could I use role play to lead to blasphemy and demonic worship? Do you mean while we are having sex I should focus on these things in my mind? As I am pretty certain if as I am fucking Jen I say hail Satan or any such comment – things wouldn’t go well.
I do find talking to you very addictive. I want you to experience what it is like fucking Jen. If you want to fuck and wank imaging my wife I would love that and I know it would help my journey move on deeper and quicker. But thanks for your time and any guidance or ideas would be great. Hail Satan
RESPONSE FROM XP / 09.01.2021 / VIA EMAIL
Hail Shane
I like that she says “you wish” … that means that at some level she recognizes it as a turn on for you. Do you or have you watched bisex porn (two girls with a guy, the girls see the guy as the primary source of entertainment, but begin to play with each other) — how would she react to this?
So the role play is to subtly introduce new demonic/blasphemous themes. Like asking Jen to dress like a nun or like a succubus … they can be seen as playful, harmless and almost “comical” like Halloween — but the inference is to connect religion with sex; demons to sex; kink and dirty-talk can push this event further. Like you dress like a priest and ask her to confess her dirty sins … you said she already will call you other adulterous names — what about “Father”?
You need to get out of the vanilla mode — get more raunch, filth and perversion — you said that the thought of a hot sexy young tranny fucking your wife would “take you to another level” — but again, it’s all about her. What about you? What is it you want for yourself? By setting her free sexually … Does that mean that you can also be free from convention to enjoy what you want? You say you have boundaries? Why set boundaries? Why not open your mind to everything and anything that you find sexually exciting?
EMAIL FROM SHANE / 09.01.2021 / VIA EMAIL
Will try to introduce some of these ideas. What do I want? More than anything I want to watch another mans penis move in and out of Jens pussy. I want to hear her moan and groan. I want her to willingly use her thighs to pull another mans cock deep inside her. I want to watch her face look deep in to her eyes. I want to have my face right up against her pussy as the cock goes deep inside I want to smell it all I want to here the sounds I want to see his cock swell and pump inside her I want it all I am sorry for all the messages I will leave you in peace. If you have any ideas about how I can get Jen to open her pussy for a man / woman let me know.
RESPONSE FROM XP / 09.01.2021 / VIA EMAIL
Hail Shane … I check my messages through the day and respond when I can. If there are gaps, it is because I am either sleeping, fucking or working. Haha. Don’t worry, I like that you write to me and though I must admit that I am very perverted — IRL — I don’t always get my way either… My current gf is a work-in-progress … I do get her to wear devil masks, I piss in her mouth and I have fucked her anally (she found it painful) … but she is genuinely afraid of my dark passions and sometimes objects to my demands … she also, is definitely not into other women (and I have tried to get this to happen many times) saying I want a threesome with either two girls or she can have me with another hot young guy (as I am bi). We will see.
Hail Satan.
EMAIL FROM SHANE / 10.01.2021 / VIA EMAIL
So how do you get your girlfriend to engage in activities – that she wouldn’t be overly open to? I would love to get her to fuck someone as I watch but do not see that ever happening. I know she most definitely enjoyed the role play aspect – but moving things onto the next stage how do you go about that? What even is the next stage? I mean if you were fucking someone and they actively call you a different name and you are both looking into each others eyes – they have to be excited by this? They have to be into the whole thing? Think I will see if I can introduce some costume play and see where that goes. Any suggestions to help me corrupt myself further? You have planted the tranny seed – viewed a bit last night first time that is some pretty hot stuff?
RESPONSE FROM XP / 09.01.2021 / VIA EMAIL
Hail Shane — I love trannies because they look feminine, but know how to truly please a man. They love anal sex and sucking cock. They will do all manner of perverted things that a woman would never do … and they are despised by the Christian faith — so having thoughts about intersex, androgyny, cross-dressers, fembois, ladyboys, shemales, t-girls, trannies, hermaphrodites — so completely taboo. If you look at the Baphomet — the devil — he is also twin-sexed … masturbate to ONLY tranny and satanic porn (nothing else) … make it your preference … maybe you need to look into pegging!
Very hot and honest correspondence, thanks XP and Shane; I’ve been hard the whole time I’ve been reading and writing this response.
I certainly relate to your confusion Shane, I sst on the fine edge between my Xtian upbringing and Satanic freedom for most of my life, it took meeting my wonderful and evil wife online to take the plunge into true Devil worship and freedom (I am very blessed).
I’ve been searching for Tatiana my entire life, only wish I’d met her sooner; she’s one of those souls who has never been burden by a sense of guilt; what a fucking blessing. When we met she was drifting and, believed it or not, still a virgin with men. She and her sister were very close and sexually intimate. it’s incredibly powerful to watch videos of them together. Unfortunately Nastya died recently,,so our family has shrunken but our desire for another female partner persists.
Tanya anb XP have been the catalyst to my awakening, I pray to Satan that He brings someone into your life to help you and your wife set yourselves free of the tyranny of your empty fucking God.
Now to my confession, I owe a lot to XP and this website, I owe you a lot Shane, for your honesty and your willingness to reach out to our Dark Lord; HAIL SATAN, HAIL XP, HAIL SHANE!
I love the debauched life I’m living with my Satanic Wife. I love that Tatiana has NO taboos about sex and is fulfilling all of my most perverse dreams.
Just like you Shane, I wanted my former wives and lovers to be with other people, this is a central focus of my current marriage; the reality is much better than the dream.
As my numerous perversions are revealed, and realized, I have come to understand the degree to witch I was enslaved by the supposedly loving and benevolent God you worship and by the idea of eternal punishment.
Praise Satan that you are here and you are slowly becoming aware that there is real freedom to be found in only our Satanic Father. I thank Satan every day for providing Tatiana and XP to guide along the path of complete debauchery and freedom; I hope this for you too Shane.
Now to a few suggestions, for you and your wife. Dramatically would increase the frequency of your porn viewing, perhaps invest in becoming a premium member of a porn portal, and masturbate a lot while praising Satan; particularly with your wife. Encourage your wife to dress the part of your slut, go out in public and relish the lust-filled appreciation other people have for your woman.
Think of your wife as a stranger, or a common whore you’ve just packed up. You will certainly be envigorated in your deepening relationship to Satan, and your inner debauchery, by introducing this fantasy life to your wif; you will possibly reap the benefits of your new found freedom when she begins to leave the bondage of her empty God and finds true freedom in herself.
HAIL SATAN.
Marc and Tatiana